I hated you! Jarren Alcanta

Draft Chapter seventeen

Renzo eye on the road.

What important now is Mrs Rivera decided to leave the hospital and she's in the Villa waiting , suddenly it didn't feel right with the request to bring Crizie with him.

He desperately ignore his nerves kicking appropriately , and wish to cease the danger that Crizie's indeed his everything , but I made a mistake. And it's not excuse that he is just a man , in a sudden pleasure sparked and Trisha were so beautiful that night ...

Guilt.. it never failed to remind him that happened in the Tent , and how bastard he is. Something that can't just erase , to think Trisha .. to forget it. want to remembered it. And think he totally lose her.

His not worthy to pursue his feeling to her , and besides it was over.

What I witnessed that night terrifies me , Crizie ready to held the spirit of alcohol , and release what's she's hiding from Jarren. Then , sealed him a kiss! do I deserve this heartache.

Now what? she wasn't aware that the atmosphere inside the car , terrifies me. She were sitting so comfortable.. I better mind the wheel , my nerves not dense and totally off. It's pisses me that I can't ignore the fact that I head over heel and ruined my fucos.

And his in trouble now that Mrs Rivera decided to move and played her role , and its bothered him so much.

I shouldn't let my feelings dictate in this situation , grandma sure will kill me. I know what she could do and what kind of torture she implements if I didn't see how serious she is , as always it's her way to say that she's in my side. I should do it perfectly this rare chance , but what was gotten in my head? so messed.

So annoyed , his confident suddenly out of reach nor his patient as he know that holding back is not his thing , he only care what's the result either good or bad. But all this commotion there's one thing he wanted to hear , is what Crizie excuse or will she denie it that night with Jarren? nothing else just to clear his curiosity hanging inside him , it fear me to know their status now.

He think that if its continue , let possess by her and just shut his butt in his seat.

I will regret it .. wasting grandma to think she's giving me problem rather opportunity to be with this clueless Crizie who I cared most. Thinking Mrs Rivera condition , I pledge whats her plan. Now I began to doubt myself , everything is up to where fate bring Crizie in my arms. He wasn't confident hides unnecessary feeling and his not this weak. He suddenly resist to take this once a lifetime , word crumble , so upsets that do not know how to break the silent inside the car.

He's such petty , can't just tolerate his pity mind boiling inside poor heart fear to elated the mood. He sure that once his nerves spark a lit of confident , he'll ask Crizie a question that he will forever regret , this can't be.

Feel guilty.

Renzo heart half dead to see grandma unconcious when he reached the room , he were terribly worried that Mrs Rivera hospitalized , that night were the deepest nightmare to him , reason why he still recollecting his self scattered into peices.

I hardly believe that one day she will stab my heart , it feared me that she's gone without saying a word like what mom did to me and secondly I was shots two arrow in a row ... totally heartbroken.

A night where he won't ever forget in his whole life.

I was relief that grandma were fine , I missed it when she yelled at me. At times she's too cold , pushing me away and follow my dreams. But , this time she too much.. right now I feel bad. I can't fulfill what her makes happy , I already accepted that Crizie and I weren't meant to be. He somehow relieve that he ended his feelings , and determined to turned away his heart so it won't cross the line and be content that she were so calm sitting there , and just silently observe her back of his curiosity.