I hated you! Jarren Alcanta

Chapter eleven

   Crizie's POV

      "   Is   there   something   good happened to you today? your body tells you were happy , swaying gracefully even my eyes were close I could sense it .. " to Crizie who helping her to peel the apple and slice it.

      When Mrs Rivera laid back on the sofa ,  her body is weak and not able to sway a little.  But ,   absorbed Crizie energy seeing her so lively.  Its nice feeling that her heart silently humming because of her.

      Watching Lifestyle Makeover in a 42 inch smart TV , in a mute mood with subtitle below the screen and CD player is on.

      Listening to her favorite classic music in the living , with the frame of Renzo embracing his grandma hang in the wall.

      It was a peaceful moment for her.

      Recently Renzo tells the story why he move out ,   that she's gotten sick of him.  I can read in his face how upset he is ,  that even in her state.  Her concerns purely for his sake.  His afraid if something happen when his not in her side.  I feel his love.  I think she only wish to see Renzo lived on his own ,   so that when she's not around her heart at ease that he lived well.

      Aunt Amy Kim stayed with his grandma , for the two people who lived in this apartment is quite spacious with three rooms ,  diner table few steps away in the living room and in the hallway.

     In her right side ,  bathroom , then the kitchen.

      " Not really Mrs Rivera , but am afraid I got myself in trouble ... something gotten in me. I feel like 'am about to sing , then.. " I replied. Posing holding a fork as if its a microphone ,  " I forgot that 'am tone dead. I almost scare you , " silly me. Seriously I feel that I put myself in trouble , somehow.

      And she attend Mrs Rivera , hand her the fork with a slice of apple and then get her warm water.

      So instead to look after her.

      She's abusing her kindness , her body still in recovering but look what she's doing giving her trouble.

      To think Renzo trusted me ,  sent a message that she shouldn't overextend grandma specially if she ask some files in his room. I being irresponsible , Mrs Rivera is quite sensitive when 'am around.  She really cared ,  and I'm lucky that she treated me like a family.

      She observes right and can't find the right word to spell it.

      It just driven me , intently.

      I'm putting every piece of puzzle in Jarren action.

      He was fine that day in Sheik Lo Beach , though it surprised me that his getting along with others. And he smilingly over , his like a child who meet a playmate and happily engage itself when we played Dare game , well knowingly because Trisha is there supportive girlfriend.

      Then what is wrong with me? it shouldn't be like this my chest strangely off the beat , instead that my head back to my normal sense.  I was mesmerized by him.

      Since when it started that I got hopes up and hold Jarren back , his warmed presence heat up my heart and wanted him. I screwed without warning , it felt so good and I feel relying in his action its unfair.   After all  my efforts vanished ,  I strongly forbid anything that could stop me from erasing every piece of him , trying to hold my heart 'til I completely forget his name then why fire hits up inside me.