I am just a box

January

1/8/2016

My name is _____. This is my diary. I'll be writing down all my thoughts and probably rewriting events from my life in this brand new diary!... It's more like my cell phone though. After I filled my first one I figured this would just save money time and space.

For the past year I've been living with a little trauma but perfectly fine, after all I have a bunch of people that look after me... well only three. I don't have any friends and my parents died a year ago.

I'm only 16 years old though and live with three boys.

The first one is Yuuta Tachibana. He's the quiet one. Most find him cool, I find myself jealous. He's not so quiet though, more like... I actually don't know how I explain it. He's always calm and cellected and down to earth I guess you can say.

The second, is Shin Fukashima. He a really nice happy guy... most of the time. He has a second side to him making me scared of him sometimes. He likes anything sour and stuffed animals.

The last one, Kizami Shimotsuki. He likes sweets a lot and is somewhat seeious, from time to time he loves to be very childish. For some reason he always knows what presents to get me and loves giving presents.

All of us live alone in a big house, the other three have to work though so I'm usually sitting here all alone.

I wandered the house today. It was empty as usual. No one to talk to, no one making noise, no one here. Just me. Just me is a little scary.

Shin's parents own this house... well, while they were still here. His larents left him a long time ago. They just packed their bags and left so when Shin woke up that morning he was all alone.

I'm feeling very tired right now...

1/9/2016

I woke up thinking there was school today. I tripped while changing my clothes and Yuuta came running in while I was half dressed. I got really red... both of us... He slowly closed the door and we pretended nothing ever happened.

After my realization that it was Sunday, I crawled back into my pajamas and straight into bed again after a snack made by assorted sweets.

Shin was in my bed though. I didn't know what to do. I didn't care much anyway. I crawled into bed and stayed as far away as I could from him. When I woke up again Shin was complaining and Kizami was standing next to my bed.

I ignored their argument and went back to bed. No point in waking up to this.

It was almost midnight when I woke up again. The room smelled a lot like Kiazami and Shin. It was really warm in my bed too. I didn't want to get out of it so I stayed here. It was way too comfortable.

Way to comfortable...

I opened my eyes and laying there, only inches away from me was Kizami. I guess I'm the end he slept here as well. He startled me a little, so I backed up and turned to my other side only to see Shin asleep there as well.

I yawned. I'll just let those two sleep there. I grabbed a few stuffed animals and left the room quietly.

It was really dark out and I forgot which room I was heading to, so I opened a random door and peeked through it.

Yuuta was asleep at his desk when I opened the door.

I poked him a couple times, said sorry for intruding, and went to sleep.

1/10/2015

Today was school. I changed into my uniform without tripping over my skirt again and slowly made my way down the stairs.

I rubbed my eyes as I made my way down the stairs step by step.

The other three were already down there, tossing things across the room and talking very loud.

"Oh! Morning _____!" They all said in sync.

"We're late." Yuuta said, looking at the clock.

"Right. I'll be going first." Shin left seconds after.

"I'll follow him making sure he doesn't run into trouble." Yuuta left as well.

"_____, do you like any of us?" Kizami asked randomly. I didn't respond. I just stared at him. "Heh, just kidding, hurry up, let's go." He picked up everyone's lunches and ran out the door with me.

I don't like school. In school my only friend is the bathroom. I sit there whenever I can to avoid socializing. Eventually I got used sitting in here all day. Today however someone walked up to me.

"Look, I'm forced to do this so let's- hey are you even listening?!"

I looked up at her.

"Anyway- hey! Listen to me!"

I looked up at her again.

"I have to- Ugh! I give up! You have to go and help me deliver stuff to the other classrooms right now! After that we have a lot of other student council work you have to help me with!" She said loudly.

I pointed to myself.

"Yes you!" She grabbed my arm and I had to do errands all day.

I'm home now. I walk home alone because everyone else is working. Im not allowed to work because I get sick easily. I don't like it. I don't like being alone, I don't like not being able to see people, I don't like staying in bed all day. There's nothing to do.

My brain is malfunctioning.

The world slowly became black.

I fell asleep, right in front of the door.