I am just a box

February

2/10/2016

I woke up forgetting what day it was. It was Thursday and I had to go to school. I didn't want to go to school so I pretended to be sick. Stupid thermometers said otherwise. Yuuta said I could stay home though, he's really nice that way.

What I didn't know was that I was alone all day.

2/11/2016

I took a bath today and when I took off my clothes I noticed a small silver locket/pocket watch thing wrapped around my neck. I wondered how that got there. Ignoring it I took it off and went into the bath.

Shin came home early and noticed the locket/pocket watch thing on the floor outside my room. He panicked so much he got light headed.

I said sorry and he put it back around my neck.

"Don't lose it, please." He sounded like he already asked this. After giving me a long hug he left. I don't know what's going on.

2/12/2016

I had to go to school today. It was just a half day so it should be ok. I'm very... dumb, though. I miss a lot of school and have no time to study so I always have the lowest grades. Yuuta offered to help me but I never get the time to. Plus, Saya isn't helping me at all. As part of an agreement because I'm sick so often I have to help out the student council to make up for missing weeks of school. I get stuck doing a lot of work and getting sick again. My body was never this fragile before, at least that's what everyone else says.

2/13/2016

Kizami offered to take me around town. I declined because I like the comfort of my home. Kizami looked sad and we started playing around with pictures like little kids.

When I fell asleep and woke up again. Yuuta was digging around my room. He told me my closet was pretty empty and my room had nothing but stuffed animals. I forgot I leave my closet door open. I asked him what he was doig here and he said Shin. Then Shin busted into the room and started breaking out into heated arguments with Yuuta. I laughed a little and so did the other two.

After I made dinner Shin walked into the kitchen and asked if I still had the locket/pocket watch thing. I said yes and he seemed to be relieved. I didn't bother to ask why though.

2/14/2016

It's valentine day and I made chocolate for myself forgetting all about it. I was about to eat one until Kizami walked in and ate it instead. I started getting angry and then Kizami fed me one. We both smiled because I didn't know I could make yummy chocolate. I gave everyone else some too.

2/15/2016

The other three made an excuse for why they didn't go to school yesterday because a large swarm of girls pretty much attacked them today, pushing me out of the way like I was garbage. I said it was fine and tried to forget about what happened. They tried to make up for it at lunch but I lost my appetite when I saw all that candy, that's never happened before. I love candy. They got me pudding though which I gladly ate.

2/16/2016

I didn't know I was being so jealous yesterday, that I refused to eat a thing and refused to sleep, which got me sick. I wandered the halls for a little until Shin heard me collapse outside his door.

2/20/2016

I'm finally feeling much better. Everyone got really worried for a second because I couldn't eat a thing without feeling like I have to vomit. Sleep helps, a lot.

I don't like spending Sunday's alone. Because there's nothing to do that's important on Sunday and if no ones home I just feel even more lonely. No one's awake. Yuuto fell asleep at his desk, Kizami fell asleep on the couch, and Shin wandered into my room. I continued to pace back and forth for a while figuring what to do.

As I wandered around I found the stairs leading to the third floor. The last time I tried climbing these stairs I fell and landed myself in the hospital.

My brain hurt.

2/24/2016

School isn't helping. Too much drama, too much work, not enough rest. I didn't sleep much the last week. My head hurts a lot. Kizami and Shin keep arguing, Yuuta looks as if life is looking down on him. Everyone's stressed or depressed. It's not so fun to watch.

2/27/2016

It's Sunday again. I'm home alone for some reason because of some sort of emergency. I woke up really late though so it was dark all day. No one was home even then.

The locket/pocket watch thing dangled from my neck and fell suddenly as I got out of bed. When I picked it up it had writing engraved on the back. It was in another language though. I ignored it.

It was dark no matter where I went.

Complete and total nothingness.