One Wish

CHAPTER 52

  "No." "Huh? What do you mean? You don't want to leave anymore?" My parents are shocked. "No, there's no point of me going. I'm sure they have already forgotten about me, so..." I look down on my bed. For some reason I feel really sad. I feel so sad that tears are starting to form in my eyes. Why am I crying? "T-they're p-prob-, sniff, probably happy, krgh, enough, hrgh, w-without m-." I can't say the last word. It's the truth, but I can't bear it.

Dad comes and hugs me. He pats my back as I weep on his shoulder. "Shh... There, there... It's okay. I'm sure they haven't forgotten about you. I'm sure they miss you a lot." "They're not, sniff." I then start to really cry. "How about you get some sleep? I'm sure you're tired so you're talking nonsense. Let's talk about this tomorrow, okay?" I don't say anything and just go to bed. I hope tomorrows a better day.

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It's morning. As always, I'm not hungry, so I stay in my bed. I just lay there, as I'm thinking of meaningless thoughts. Suddenly my dad comes into my room with the home phone. "Hey, there's someone on the phone who wants to speak with you." I think for a moment and then realize - it's probably Seven. I told him not to call me though. I really wanna talk to him, but... "Tell them I'm tired," I whisper. Dad looks at me confused, but sadly nods and leaves my room.

What. Did. I. Just. Do?? WHAT DID I JUST DO?! I could've talked to Seven about what's troubling me, but I just said no? I put my hands on my face. Why did I just do that? Why? I-. Then I start to cry again. Why is this happening to me? The voices are screaming in my head again. I curl into a ball and shut my eyes as tightly as I can. Please, stop!!!

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Few days go by and I am laying on my bed again. What should I do? My dad comes into my room again: "Umm, you have a call again." He's been calling me everyday, trying to talk with me. "I'm... I can't talk right now..." and I look away. Dad looks at me a bit sadly, but then he has an angry face. He then tells the phone: "Can you please wait a moment?" and he puts the phone in the corridor.

He sits on my bed and so do I: "You know that he has been calling you for the past couple of weeks, right? I think you should at least hear him out. If he's that persistent, he might want to tell you something important." I have never seen this kind of expression on him. "I... Can't talk to him. I can't tell him that I'm not going back! He'll be heartbroken!" "Well, that means at least he cares about you and hasn't forgotten about you! Just talk with him!" I look down. "Fine." He sighs a relief and goes to the corridor to get the phone. He gives it to me and with shaking hands I grab it.

"Hello?"

"Ahh! Finally! Hey, MC!"

"Hey..."

"Why do you sound so dead? I've... been trying to reach you, but something is always up with you..."

"Yeah... Sorry..."

"Well, anyway, I wanted to ask when are you coming here? You graduated from school, right?"

"Yeah, I did. Umm, about that..."

"I can't wait to see you again. I really miss you! It was so hard not to call you so I eventually gave in and did. Even though your dad picked up, I could still talk to you."

"..."

"Umm... Why are you so silent?"

"Umm... I... I think... I'm not coming..."

"..."

"I wouldn't have thought you would call me like-"

"What are you talking about?"

"What do you mean?"

"You... You said you'll be coming back to live here once you graduate, right?"

"Yeah, I did..."

"Then... What do you mean you're not coming?" I can hear sadness and panic in his voice.

"I mean I'm not moving away."

"W-why?"

"..." How am I supposed to say this? "Well, I gave it some thought and I decided that it's better if I stay here. I'm sure everybody is happy there, so there's really no point in me coming."

"MC... What are you talking about...? You don't sound like yourself. Tell me what's wrong!"

"Nothing is wrong. Just... That's what I think."

"Well... You're wrong! Do you want to say that you won't come back, because I'm already happy??"

"Y-yeah, I'm sure you are-"

"I'll never be truly happy if you're not with me. Y-you have no idea what I'm feeling right now...! Haha." He's in hysteria again. "My hands are shaking so bad right now, haha... I-i-is th-this really the end...? T-tell me it's not!"

"It's not necessarily an end, but... I guess we won't be seeing each other again..."

"..." He's silent for a moment.

"Umm... Are you still there?"

"When will your parents be away? We need to talk about this."

"I've told you, I can't tell you where I live."

"I'll find you somehow. Tell me."

"Mmm... I think they've talked about 17. I think?"

"Three days... Okay... Haah, please reconsider. I'll never be happy when you're not with me. I need you in my life one way or another, alright?"

"...Alright."

"Okay, if I don't find you I will call you. Make sure you pick up."

"Mhm. Bye..."

"See you."

With that, he ended the call. I'm so scared. Since he's an informant he'll easily find me, but when he comes... I won't be able to protect him. I don't want him to be hurt. In the end it's his choice. I wonder what he will choose.

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