To Protect

Chapter 6.

*Hi :) TW: Vomit/Very small panic attack. 
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The journey back with Sapnap was quiet and filled with an uncomfortable tension. I tried starting up a conversation a few times but to no avail, he rode his boat quicker than me to try and keep distance. Eventually his figure faded out of my eyesight.

Once I arrived back to L'manburg, his boat was discarded to the side and he was nowhere to be seen. I sighed, for I genuinely didn't understand.

I walked slowly back to the community house, the wooden walls around Punz house creating an even more dark ambience during the night time. Purpled's tower casted small beams of light onto the path and the prime churches glass windows glinted against moonlight. Almost peaceful. I wasn't sure where I was going at first, but I headed to Eret's castle, climbing up the towers and tiptoeing across the walls to the front as if walking across a tightrope. Sitting over the edge I looked down at my hands.

Alone, conflicted and confused.

It was like I had two parts of me fighting for dominance. One side wanted to just be with friends and enjoy the land together but the other side was greedy and more determined to win over my body, gain power. It was willing to hurt anyone in my path towards the power and I had no control over it. Holding onto the hope that George and Sapnap would come back to me was preventing the evil side from winning. They couldn't be mad at me forever especially if I keep going to them and apologising. They would forgive me, they always do. I had Punz too, Purpled, Fundy. I had people and they loved me.

At least I knew Fundy loved me, truly, but it didn't matter.

The more I thought of it the more I cancelled Fundy out.

After hours upon hours which seemed to pass by like minutes, the sun peeked up in the distance, beginning to illuminate the land in front of me. It was quiet, too quiet. Once these paths and buildings were filled with noise at all hours like Sapnap and Karl squealing at each other in excitement while Big Q screamed in Spanish, Punz and George fighting with a playful tone, Purpled explaining how he clutched in a bed wars fight to Niki, Wilbur singing songs to Tommy and Tubbo, Techno pretending he wasn't listening but enjoying his brothers voice all the same, Phil building while trying to ignore the commotion around him, Tommy getting impatient with sitting still while swearing at Ranboo who joined the gang, Callahan following Alyssa about silently as she ranted to him about something Sapnap did, Hbomb screaming 'master' as he barrelled after Fundy who covered his ears, Sam and BadBoyHalo comparing trident tricks in the distance.

It used to be one big family.

The visions of everyone around me suddenly blurred out as my eyes watered up, I closed them for a second and once I opened them everyone was gone. Scanning around I noticed Niki in her flower shop with Puffy. Fundy and Ranboo peering through the shop window before Puffy came out and shouted at them. Other than those guys there wasn't even a ghost about. I had divided the SMP and forced everyone onto sides, the worst thing being that I knew it was my fault.

Once I had pulled myself together, I decided to search the grounds for Punz as something to do. After about ten minutes I found him balanced gracefully on a fence holding wheat in one hand and seeds in the other, the cows and chickens pushing to get closer to him for food. "Hello Dream," he said without the slightest movement while his back still faced me. I took a few steps closer while he leant down to feed the animals.

"Punz... Hi."

Once he finished, he gently walked along the side of the fence as if it was easy, before stepping off and charmingly landing. Punz was agile, possibly the most agile of all of us. "Can I help?" He quizzed me.