The thunder and storms (it's crazy)

1 - Clouds

"My thoughts are scattered and they're cloudy" – Cloudy, Simon and Garfunkel

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For Eddy, it all started with a text message.

'bro can i come to ur place right now?'

'Sure, what's up?'

'i'll tell u'

'Ok np'

The bell rang less than 10 minutes later.

"Oh my god, what happened?"

"Do I look that awful?"

"Huh... No offense bro, but yes. Come in, I'm gonna make you some tea."

"Rachel and I broke up."

"..."

"I'm not joking."

"Fuck the tea, you need vodka."

***

For Brett, it all started with a phone call.

'Hello?'

'I-... I-... Oh my god, I need to talk to you, I need to talk to someone, please, please can you come? I'm at my place, please I need you to come, or someone, anyone....'

'O- of course, what's going on? You're scaring the crap out of me.'

'We... we broke up....'

'What?! Oh my god, holy fucking fuck, okay, hum... don't move, I'm coming over. Just wait for me, okay? I'm bringing beers and chocolate.'

***

They're both in their living room. Tired and upset. A bit drunk, too. Other people's sadness is a heavy burden, they both think.

"Well... It seems like nothing lasts forever."

"Yeah. I really thought if there was gonna be a couple who would stick together until the end, it would be them."

"Definitely."

Silence, for a moment.

"Remember uni? How they used to spend their time together, told each other everything, how they were basically best friends?"

"Everybody shipped them, though. Everybody knew they were gonna end up together."

"But them. They were so oblivious! I remember talking to Phil and he was like 'No waaay, broooo she's just my friend, besides I could never land a girl like that in a million yeaaars.'"

"And at the same time I was the one who tried to convince Rachel that Phil totally had the hots for her, and she was like 'No waaayyy, he's my best friend, he could never look at me this way, I'm not his type!'"

"Bro, they were so stupid."

"They struggled so much."

Silence, again.

"Best love story I've ever heard, though."

"Yep."

"I mean, can you imagine? They became best friends, hang out together for years, pining for each other in front of everybody and then, when their friendship was at its peak, they finally confessed to each other."

"Remember that night? We were so drunk, we almost thought it was a joke."

"You were drunk. I was taking pictures of them because I already planned on being Phil's best man at their wedding."

"Well... Looks like it's not gonna happen."

Silence. A sad one.

"I really can not believe it's happening. It makes me so sad... They actually lost both their fiancé, and their best friend."

"How's it gonna be, now? Will we still be able to see everybody? Or are we gonna need to split the group, because they won't be able to be in the same room anymore?"

Silence. A tough one.

"I don't know, bro. But it's gonna be harsh."

***

Eddy's always thought about it. The dangers of falling in love with a friend. Of going out with them. Of having a romantic relationship.

He's like this: brainy, scared, an overthinker. But here, he knows he's not overthinking. He's being smart. He's thought about it for the longest time.

He weighed up the pros and cons.

So his conclusion: risking a friendship for love? Definitely not worth it. Because nothing lasts forever, hey?

Goddammit, it's so fucking scary. And Phil's story really doesn't help. Because in his own case, Eddy wouldn't only lose his friend. Everything, every single thing of his life revolves about him. Job, playing, friends, living, even his clothing...  Everything in his life needs Brett fucking Yang.

It's always been this way.

And it always will, hopefully.

So, risking it all just because he's got stupid feelings? No, thanks. Not gonna happen.

It's not worth it.

***

Brett's always been a bold guy. He's proud to say that fear has almost never stopped him from doing what he wants to. He likes to do stuff, to take action, to leave his thoughts behind and take the leap, to show himself (and the world) that he can.

But this? This is different.

It's not a stupid fear he might overcome.

It's his life we're talking about. Brett's life. Eddy's life. Their life. Their happiness. What they have, right now. The balance they found, like a domino tower, built brick by brick, over the years. With solid foundations, but nothing that this wouldn't destroy and crush to the ground.

So no, he's not gonna do it.

Sometimes, silence can be scarier than honesty. So he'll do it. Overcome his fear of silence, his fear of inaction, and power through the pain.

He can do it.

He can keep on hiding his feelings.

He's been doing it for ages, anyway.

And Rachel's sadness is here to remind him it's worth it.

Their happiness is worth the pain.

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Hi, author talking here! I'm very excited to start this new fanfic, and I hope you'll like the concept as much as I do <3 What do you think of this style of writing? I'm trying something new, don't know if it works, though...