How do I express myself so that you can hear me?
How do I contain myself so that you don't fear me?
How do I let you in on how I truly feel?
How can I show that my emotions are very real?
How do describe feeling burdened and alone?
Trapped in a whirlwind with no place to call home?
Do I show you how I feel or do I let it go?
I walk away for one more day my feelings go unknown.
Living with A.D.D I really struggle with expressing myself to other people. I will know EXACTLY what I want to say and I can't find the words. I come to the point of crying and aching and even physically reaching out into the air so I can try to find the words to express myself. Yet despite being extremely literate and having a vast knowledge of the english language I can't seem to find a single string of words to share my expressions with the world. I end up walking away from the conversation feeling oppressed and down trodden because I was unable to fully express myself but there was no better option then to walk away in the moment.
But I have been told I am a great listener.
Maybe because I know how frustrating it can be when you can't find a way for people to listen to you. Even if I had someone to tell, I wouldn't be able to string the right words together to describe how I feel. So what is the point of speaking my mind when my mind won't work enough to speak.
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Dark Thoughts
RandomWhere do our minds go when we are at our worst point? I have decided to post my inner most thoughts on here as a way to be heard. I don't want recognition or validation, just an outlet. I guess I hope to let other people know I am here and I feel it...
