Midnight Bound || BTS JUNGKOOK WEREWOLF AU

Ch.16 Love

Little 18+ warning on this chapter.

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Alone. That's the first thing my body senses as I open my eyes to an empty, desolate bed. The lack of Jungkook's presence makes me instantaneously worried considering his fragility last night. The image of his face, drowned with fear, was tattooed onto my memory. His absence beside me was even more deafening...Maybe he left this morning to help with pack duties?

I begrudgingly sit myself on the edge of the bed before standing up, pausing before I walked any further. If he wasn't here, I wasn't sure what to do. I had assumed that he would be waiting for me when I woke up, but now that he was gone, I'm beginning to feel almost anxious about seeing him again. Was he ashamed of what he told me last night? Maybe he didn't want to face me after what happened.

The cold flooring under the soles of my feet creaked with every footstep as I made my way downstairs. The house was eerily quiet, the sounds of laughter and chatter that I was use to hearing were completely gone, no one was to be found anywhere.

I'm not sure what was leading my direction but I soon found myself opening the door to the back yard. My eyes widened slightly as I stepped out into the nip air. Jungkook, his back facing me, was squatted on the ground, facing the forested tree line.

I sucked in a quick breath, hesistantly walking over to his form. If he sensed my presence he made no inkling of it as I approached, maintaining his stoic posture.

I stopped, sitting down beside him, staying as silent as ever. A million thoughts were running over in my head of what I should say. I glanced over at him cautiously. His face was tranquil, eyes closed head slightly tilted up, a stark comparison of how he had looked last night.

"I like to come here to bask in the nature whenever I'm feeling a little nervous. It's actually really peaceful when the rest of the pack isn't home." His soft voice breaks the almost awkward silence. His eyes are still closed as he talks, a ghost of a smile forming on his lips at his last sentence.

"Yeah where is everyone? It seems abnormal for everyone to be gone like this."

"Namjoon called for everyone to patrol today. He let me stay here with you...he thought after last night I would want some time alone with you."

I let a silence settle between us as a soft breeze rustled the outside leaves, wafting through the waves in Jungkook's hair, his fringe long enough that it was now brushing well in front of his eyes. I wanted to bring up last night, but I was fearful of disturbing his seemingly unbothered state. I chewed at my lip deciding against the latter, deciding to address the elephant in the room.

"I was concerned when I didn't see you this morning."

Jungkook lowered his head, sighing out. "I'm sorry about that..it's just, I don-, I was scared that you would have had a change of heart after last night."

I reached my hand up to soothe circles into the center of his back. I could tell he was visibly trying to calm himself as he was taking long deep breaths of air. My heart aches at his insecure demeanor.

"I'm still here, you have nothing to be afraid of."

"I know, I just got scared. I trust you I really do, I just always have this this doubt in my mind that I'm going to do something to mess this all up. Having you in my life, it makes it worth living, I'm fucking terrified of losing you."

I cup his face in my hands forcing his gaze onto mine. His cavernous brown eyes told me a plethora of emotions that he was unable to voice. They caught the light of the morning sun, glimmering slightly, causing my throat to choke up slightly as a surge of emotions raced through my being. It's then that I realize just how profound and intense my feelings for him actually were. My heart was frantically beating out of my chest, the palpitations hammering against my rib cage so aggressive that there was no way he couldn't hear it. "Jungkook, never would I ever dream of leaving you...ever. Jungkook...I love you." My voice was breathy as I said the words I had known for awhile, my mind was racing yet calm and sure of itself at the same time.