stomachaches ; lashton

six

third pov

luke took ashton's phone, opening his notebook to a few different pages. the sound of a camera shuttering echoed throughout the room as he took pictures.

the next step was to post them to ashton's instagram with a sappy caption.

"i'm having a hard time putting this into the right words. but due to the current situation i felt it was the right time to finally come clean. i'm ashton irwin and i'm recovering from anorexia nervosa.

anorexia nervosa is an eating disorder that is primarily characterized by a person's fear of gaining weight and strong desires to lose weight. it initially leads to extreme weight loss and thinness. a person who is suffering from anorexia will often refuse to eat and will starve themself until they achieve their "ideal" weight. their "ideal" weight is usually significantly lower than the weight that they should be which causes the person's body to slowly shut down.

this disorder is very dangerous and takes too many lives way too soon each year. i've struggled with poor self image for years now, it all started when i was 15. it was seen as strange and weird for a teenage boy to be struggling with such behaviors so my symptoms were completely ignored. it wasn't until i got very sick and was sent to hospital that someone found out. my body was shutting down, it hadn't even been a year since i had started. only my mum and luke knew about all this until now.

to this day, i've been struggling with full recovery, i was clean for almost three years after my hospital visit but as soon as i began to take part in this band, i've found myself falling back to old habits more and more.

i will be taking a break from every social media i have to focus fully on recovery and loving myself. thank you guys for understanding. A i"

after luke made the post on ashton's account, he shoved the phone into his back pocket before jogging back down to the living room.

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the tall boy sat down on their couch, leaning back on the dark leather to peer into the kitchen where ashton stood.

ashton, noticing the other, sat down right next to him and grabbed for his hands. "you okay?"

"mhm."

"you were pretty upset before, are you sure?" ashton stared blankly ahead while luke laid his blue orbs on ashton's lips while he spoke.

luke said nothing while he stared and ashton spoke again, "can you tell me?"

he was starting to feel guilty about the post he made. "i feel guilty."

"why?"

"i can't say."

ashton murmured something before speaking up and repeating what he said so luke could understand, "i'm sorry that you're dealing with this alone. i would share my..stuff..but i'm not ready yet."

luke froze, looking at his hands before simply nodding, feeling even guiltier now.

"you know, i honestly thought you'd expose me to the world just to make us 'even' but i knew you wouldn't do that."

"—but i did," the tall boy stood up immediately. his teeth gripped at his lower lip roughly as he awaited the response.

ashton giggled a little, "you're joking," he stated, "you're joking, right?" his face became serious while luke just stared at him. "what did you do?"

luke slid his hand into his back pocket, pulling out ashton's phone and opening the app, "take a look."

ashton took his phone and sure enough, the post was there. "luke!" he shrieked, "you're so fucking selfish," ashton stood up too, turning to walk out of the room.

"ash, wait," luke grabbed the other's shoulder but ashton pulled himself out of his clutches coldly.

"leave me alone, i'm sleeping in the guest room tonight."

luke felt his heart breaking.

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