the bell rang, signaling that they have 3 more classes till school ends and that made doyoung sigh.
"why? what happened?"
"i hate these classes. english, physics and math."
"hey! we have the same schedule. maybe we can help each other."
"you sure you wouldn't make fun of my english pronunciation?"
"yeah. i'm sure."
the two silently walked to english, doyoung going over all of the english words he had learned yesterday, and younger was trying to ask the other out for ice cream.
"hey doyoung? wanna grab some ice cream later?"
huh?
why the fuck is this guy asking me?
he's supposed to ask jisoo.
"i'm gonna ask jisoo too. i thought she'll be more comfortable if you're around. so, wanna come?"
"and third wheel? no thank you."
doyoung walked up to his seat, jaehyun following him like a lost puppy.
"oh c'mon on! it's third wheeling if we're together. and we aren't. please come. she'll be happy and i will be too."
"you will?" doyoung turned to the younger, confused.
"yeah. you can maybe make both of us comfortable around each other. please hyung."
doyoung turned wide eyed when he heard the 'hyung' and had no other option but to agree.
"okay fine."
"thank you!"
he chewed on his lip when he could see jaehyun ridiculous beautiful dimpled smile from the corner of his eye.
for the rest of the class, doyoung tried to ignore jaehyun so much.
seriously, jaehyun was so annoyingly
cute...
he would gaze at doyoung with those big puppy eyes, and those peachy dimpled cheeks.
he would talk about jisoo when their teacher wouldn't be over their backs like she was the only girl in the world.
like having her in his arms and his life would make all his problems go away.
and when doyoung would tell him to stop because he was disturbing him, he would look at him with that innocent look, that one, eyes crystal clear, dimples appearing on his fluffy cheeks.
he was annoyingly attractive.
no.
no.
no.
you can't be catching feelings for him just because he's so beautiful.
you just can't doyoung.
he kept chanting that as a mantra inside his mind.
remember.
think.
imagine.
imagine how hurt jisoo would be.
imagine how disgusted jaehyun would be.
imagine how you would feel about yourself.
doyoung was, what you would say 'still confused about his sexuality.'
but as far as he remembers, he has always been more attracted towards boys.
like that one guy in 3rd grade he tried to kiss on the cheek and instead was punished to stay back after school hours too.
or that one senior he tried to help in 6th grade in the lockers when his shirt got too tight to take off. he got close and held his shoulders, and the next thing he knew is all the boys in that room laughing at him and calling him all kinds of hurtful words like 'fad' and 'gay little motherfucker.'
and then came jisoo in 7th grade. she was the first and only one who understood that he was still figuring out his sexuality, that he doesn't know who he likes.
his best friend.
he was so lucky to have her.
but jung jaehyun may have just made his worst nightmare come true.
he was gay.
now what should he tell jaehyun?
jisoo?
most importantly, what should he tell himself?
