I'll Love You Endlessly

Chapter 1

I lied in the bed next to Louis trying not to cry and think about how this is all going to work out. I put my hands on my stomach and thought of the little buddle of joy growing inside of me. I’m happy that I get this privilege, but how am I going to tell Louis or anyone else? My mom isn’t going to live much longer and I don’t want her to have to see me become pregnant with her grandchild and then not being able to see the baby grow up and become an adult, because cancer took her life. There were so many things to consider. I have about three months until I start showing and that’s when I need to make a choice, but hopefully I can make it before then. For now my main concentration is covering up my morning sickness, aches, and hormones. It’s going to be hard, but I’m up for it if it means not hurting anyone’s feelings right now.

I got up out of bed now being 7:00 o’clock in the morning and my morning sickness kicking in. I ran to the bathroom and got in the shower trying to hold back the thought of anything that can make me nauseous. Once I finished my long relaxing shower I went into the room to get some clothes. I snuck in quiet enough to get a cute comfy dress and quiet enough to go back in to the bathroom without waking up or disturbing Louis. I put on the dress that looked like a blue and white striped shirt tucked into a little above knee length flowing navy blue skirt, but there was one problem I couldn’t reach the zipper in order to zip it up. I move in every which way to get it up. I must have been in there for at least 10 minutes struggling.

Louis barged in as I stood there doing something ridiculous to zip up the stupid zipper. I stopped what I was doing and tried to walk out so he could get ready. He turned me around to face the mirror. He grabbed my hair and put it over my shoulder as he slowly zipped up my dress. He turned me around to face him. He leaned in and gave me a kiss as I said thank you. I looked one last time at his morning roughness on his face. I don’t know why but he was a major turn on in the morning.

I walked out of the room to give Louis some privacy. I realized I was so busy trying to zip my dress that I hadn’t fixed my hair, so I went to the closest room, so no one could see me looking like a wet dog. I ended up in Olivia and Harry’s room, which probably wasn’t the best idea since they were making out right in front of me as I walked in. I slapped my hands over my eyes, typical Olivia and Harry sucking each other’s faces off without even acknowledging to lock the door.  They finally realized I was there when I said a faint “hello”.

“Oh I’m sorry Hannah. I didn’t see you come in,” Olivia said as she pulled away from Harry but still was standing very very close to him.

“Its fine I just came in to ask you if I could use your restroom to fix my hair?” I asked as I uncovered my eyes to look at the happy, very happy couple.

“Yeah, sure,” Olivia exclaimed a bit embarrassed. I walked past them as I touched Harry and gave him the stare to behave himself.

I quickly put a couple curls in the front of my hair and fixed my bangs, so I could get out of there and go start breakfast with Ava. Fortunately for me Olivia and Harry had stopped their make out session, so Harry could go talk to Louis and so Olivia could stop by Lucy’s room to ask to help her with her hair. As I made my way downstairs I ran into Louis and Harry. Harry grabbed me from behind and lifted me up off the stairs so he could get down their faster. Louis rolled his eyes as he played along and followed behind. Harry finally put me down in front of the counter by the kitchen so I could cook him food.

“Really?! Are you seriously that hungry?” I asked Harry as I flattened out my dress.

“Yeah, but clearly not as hungry as Niall,” Harry exclaimed while laughing as I turned to see Niall already sitting at the table staring at the food like it was a million dollars and he was the poorest man in the world. I let out a little giggle than got to work with the food with Ava.

Once we finished eating the delicious breakfast we all got ready to go out to shop for groceries, clothes, and other stuff. We all got into the limo and made a detour to the park so we could meet up with Josh (the drummer of the band) and his girlfriend Rose. When we arrived there was a band set up with 5 microphones which could only mean one thing, we weren’t just here to pick up Josh and Rose. When we got out of the car I looked at Louis asking him what in the hell were we doing. He just looked at me with a big smile.

The boys walked ahead of us and stood in front of the microphones. We moved forward along with a crowd of people we had front row seats and let me say it the fans were pretty calm today.

“This is our new song called Little Things. It was written by us for our lovely dazzling wives, so I hope you like it and every word is purely honest,” Liam said as he stared straight into Lucy’s eyes.

The girls and I started tearing up as the song continued. Each word was downright honest. When Louis sang his solo we didn’t take an eye off each other I felt the honestly in every word he spoke and that they truly, truly loved us unconditionally.

When they finished we all clapped and I wiped the tears away from my eyes. Louis came up to me and gave me a kiss on the forehead, “I love you, babe.” I smiled and gained control of my emotions before we all got ready to leave. I walked to the car and sat next to Rose and Lucy. We were all joking round, there was not one silent moment in that car. We all piled out of the car at the Westfield Mall to start the shopping spree or whatever you want to call it. The boys and girls split into the two stores right across from each other.

The girls and I walked all over the store and picked out everything we thought was worth a try on. I went into the dressing room on the right of Ava and on the left of Olivia. I tried on one of the first things Lucy had picked out for me. It was a black like skin tight dress, very elegant and fancy for one of the boy’s social gatherings or for the red carpet if we ever went to one. I heard Annabell scream out “Show time!” which meant time to goof off and pretend we are on a run way like they do in the movies. The store was empty other than us and the employees which were busy decorating so we didn’t risk embarrassment.

I walked out of the dressing room and we all looked at each other and laughed. It’s like we were teenagers all over again. Lucy and Rose took the lead and started making poses and kissy faces in the mirror. I stayed back and laughed for a bit but next thing I know I was on the walk way next to Olivia who dragged me. We pretended like we were the Charlie Angel’s girls and spies since we were both wearing black dresses.  We laughed are heads off for about another 30 min but we did find some very cute clothes. We all went into our dressing rooms to change back into the clothes we were wearing earlier. I took of the shirt I had on and lifted up the tank top underneath so that all I could see was my stomach. I rubbed it and thought about all the gifts and pressure that had been laid upon me. I looked in the mirror in front of me as I still had my hand on my stomach. “Mommy loves you,” I whispered as I heard someone barge into my room. I turned around and saw Ava. I quickly put my shirt down and started to fix my hair. Ava looked very confused.

“What did you just say?”

“Nothing I just was thinking about my mom,” I exclaimed which wasn’t a complete lie; I mean I was talking about a mom just it happened to be me or is going to be me.

“Then what were you looking at?” Ava questioned. Ava kept growing more confused by the minute I could see it in her eyes. I grew nervous and said the first thing that came to my head.

“I was checking to see if I had dimples in my back. You know like in the song the lads wrote..... oh, well it seems I don’t have any dang it,” I said as I lifted up my shirt one more time and put it back down. Was this what everything was going to have to resort to until I told everyone? All lies?