You were my reason.

Chapter 10

TW SELF HARM.
I walked with my head down in shame. Tubbo and Dream met up with the rest of us. "I-" Tubbo said but Dream interrupted him. "No buts Tubbo get to the point." "Okay..." "I- I'm so sorry Tommy but, I'm going to exile you..." me knowing this I put my hands on my head and whispered "Okay..." Big Q opened his mouth to day something but nothing came out. Fundy on the other hand started screaming at Tubbo. I looked at him and slowly started to walk away. "Tommy can you pack your stuff please and leave in the morning..." I shook my head meaning yes and walked back alone feeling cold. I sat at my bed knowing this would happen but still not understanding why. Before I knew it I saw myself lifting up my pant leg of my sweatpants and grabbing a fresh razor from an unopened package. I knew I had to be smart about this so I decided to do it on my ankle. I put the razor on my ankle and with my other hand I pull on my skin making to tight and felt it cut into my skin making four average sized lines. Wincing at the pain I decided to go again. It was helping my metal pain and I started to think about my physical pain instead. I started going faster making the cuts short and painful but then when I was doing it the razor got caught on a different cut and they basically melted into each other. Seeing the blood on my ankle I wiped it off with my sleeve of my sweatshirt. I was happy that I found a way to keep my self from breaking though I knew I shouldn't being doing this in the first place.

I know I said I won't be adding trigger warnings but I already had an idea of it so yeah.