You were my reason.

Just a jump... right?

Trigger warning suicide, knives, and cutting.

Alrighty so I've been writing my other book this whole time and um heheh may have forgotten about this will probably be the last chapter because 🤪🤪. Yeah so um Chile also thank for 250 reads! Also I don't ship them this is all platonic and if you think saying I love you and showing physical affection is weird please leave.

        After I was done talking Dream stopped rowing the boat. "Hey Tommy... it's okay." "No it's not dick head." I looked at him with an annoyed face on me.
         Being sick of him I jumped out on to an island and looked at him. "Welp goodbye dumb ass. Also tell Tubbo I want him gone and if I die it's all his fault!"
           
Dream looked at me disappointed and confused I was acting all happy. "I-" he stopped himself. "Alright Tommy..." he rowed the boat away and I broke down into a crying mess.
       
"I hate it here..." I said looking at my scars from last night. "At this point there's no meaning...T-t-Tubbo was my reason." 

I was drowning in my head but I felt someone or something tap my head. I looked up and saw Wilbur. "WILBUR OH MY GOD." I yelled crying with tears in my eyes. "Tommy... thats not me." I heard a voice in my head that sounded like Wilburs. "Well whoever you are what do you want?" "Well... I'm just thinking if you want to make him feel guilty you should go back. You don't have nothing to lose. If they kill you it's a win, and if you don't you can just do it yourself." I smiled. "He would feel like shit both ways." I grabbed a stack of blocks and made a boat to go back.

I snuck back it very messily but no one seemed to notice. I walked to Tubbos house and slammed his door open hearing him talking with Dream. "Tubbo I'm sorry but he ca-" "Oh hello Lwittle Dweam." "Tommy? Get out of here you shouldn't stay if you want to live." "Dream! What the hell is wrong with you?!" Tubbo screamed. I snickered.

"Oh Tubbo." I smiled. "You should be asking yourself that." "Tommy don't say that!" Tubbo cried. " If anything really happens to me it's your fault." He stood there with his jaw hanging.

"Tubbo he doesn't mean that okay." Dream frowned walking up to me and putting his sword up to my neck. I giggled a little feeling it cut me. "Oh I do though." I said grabbing the sword slowly letting it slice against my neck but not letting it hit my vain. "See there's really no reason to stay at this point." I said turning my head to Tubbo. I could here Tubbo start crying. "Heh." I smiled. "You know what seeing you in pain is so much better then seeing you happy." "Tommy don't push him..." Dream hesitated. "Oh Dream, you try to act tough but really you aren't. You can't even keep me from getting into here." Did you know I swore to Tubbo I would never leave him?" "N-no." Dream said looking at the ground. I chuckled. "Look where we are now. I'm basically on my deathbed at this point." " T-Tommy?" "No Toby, let me finish." Dream moved his mask feeling his clamp fall but he didn't care. Tubbo's eyes started filling up with tears making them fall. "Aww Tubbo don't cry I'm not leaving just yet." I said putting my hand on his back. "I love you Tubbo." "I love you too Tommy." Tubbo said looking at the ground.

"No you don't and I hope you'll realize that some day. I hugged him and soon let go. "Goodbye Tubbo." I grabbed Dream sword and left and for some reason he didn't move.

I walked into the Neather and looked at the lava. I heard Tubbo run in with Dream. "TOMMY!" Dream screamed while Tubbo run up to me. "Tubbo I would like it if you did it." I handed him the sword but he pushed it back to me grabbing my wrist. "Tommy you can't I won't let you." "That's the problem Toby... You won't let me go and you have to. I can't keep living like this and leaving is the only escape." I yelled at him but quiet at the same time.

Picking up the sword I give him my discs and slit my throat falling back into the lava. I smiled feeling my body burn and all the pain going away. "TOMMY!" I saw Toby jump in grabbing me and hugging me. I felt Tobys body go cold like the same as mine. He gave me one disc and he held the other one. I felt everything go black and saw us in third person. I started crying. Tubbo left with me. "TOMMY?" I heard yelling it was Tubbo. "I-I'm sorry. I couldn't leave you." "I love you Tubbo." I cried hugging him. "I love you too."

Oh my :( Also like I said awhile ago please call this number if you feel like giving up. 18002738255. And I know this might sound really weird but if you need to cry please do leaving your feelings will do stuff and make you basically feel numb. Anyways please eat and drink water today and fall asleep.

I love you 💕