31st Dec 2020
Last Day for 2o2o...(sigh)
I'm in dilemma...time just passing too fast that I even not preparing for spm yet.
I'm not ready for facing any obstacles.
I don't see any hope left for my study for spm.
When I see another person who achieved their dream like a singer...their result for spm is so good they even got a bachelor degree.
I was thinking about how they did manage to go through it.
Did their parent help them..how about me?
How they get motivated and keep going without losing it?
Did they never think about problems they been through..?
In a month I will occupy a Malaysian education certificate.SPM
But I never study.
I try so hard to study but I just can't study alone..in a room without knowing anything about the subjects that I need to study.
I don't know what to do. I don't know where should I start it.
Other than that, I need to work. I need to do chores. And my sibling always makes a mess at home.
I'm tired of it. I want to study like another person without thinking about the house and work. I'm sick of it. TT
If I get motivated it will never last long...
I want to do better.
I want my life to be normal.
Why I bother to live if I'm living like this.
