Arcane

12. The Choice

Finally after a day that seemed like it wouldn't end, Emersyn arrived home, closing the door and sighing as she leaned back against it. Her eyes closed shut, not much darker then the cold house she walked into, trying to listen out for anything, anyone moving around the house.

Though like last night and the night before that, it was silent, not a whimper, not a whisper.

"Good to be home." Emersyn whispered to herself as her body sagged, sitting her bag and coat down right where she kicked off her shoes before walking to the kitchen. "Maybe..." Emersyn looked through the fridge at the lacking of edible food sitting before her. "Ordering in, it is."

Taking her hair out and running her nails against her scalp, Emersyn moved towards her room, stopping in front of Yoongi's door. Under the door, Emersyn could see movement against the light that was on in the room, Emersyn just thankful that Yoongi was still present. 

Knocking three times, Emersyn went through a normal routine they had; "I'm home, Yoongi. I'm going to order some food, would you like anything?" Emersyn waited a few heartbeats before speaking again. "Okay, I'll order now."

Emersyn walked to her bedroom, freeing herself of any restricting clothing and into her most comfy pyjamas before walking back to the front door to get her phone. Before she walked away there was a knock at the door, confused she looked through the small window beside the door to see a delivery man standing there. Opening the door, thinking they might have had the wrong house, Emersyn was prepared to turn them away.

"Emersyn Hayes?" They asked, looking up at Emersyn expectedly, who just nodded before they offered a bag of food. "Enjoy."

"Um... thank you." Emersyn smiled a little before they were walking away.

Emersyn took a step back and closed the door, completely confused at the bag of food in her hands until she turned around. 

"Oh my god, Yoongi, you scared me." Emersyn stared wide eyed at the hybrid in front of her, hair a mess, bags under his eyes, and yet still standing in front of her.

"Well are you coming?" Yoongi spoke the first words to Emersyn in days. "I'm hungry."

The hot bag of food pressed against Emersyn's chest was starting to burn, but the confusion of what stood in front of her weighed more. Following dumbly behind the hybrid, Emersyn stopped a little short from the kitchen, watching as Yoongi took out plates, going to set the table. Emersyn really didn't know what to do, she just stood and watched him, not wanting to make any sudden movement to upset him.

"Are you just going to stand there?" Yoongi asked over his shoulder as he sat at the table in his normal seat.

"Right, yeah... sorry." Emersyn moved quickly over towards the table, finally sitting the hot food down and sitting herself.

Emersyn sat, quietly as Yoongi served them both food, eating the food and looking up every now and then at the panther hybrid across from her. He never said anything, only focused completely on eating, his eyes never even leaving his plate. It was awkward, or maybe it was just Emersyn who didn't know what to do or say to the hybrid across from her. 

Did she apologies? Did she make small talk? Excuse herself and give him freedom?

Emersyn was about to make some excuse to leave the table, to leave Yoongi in peace after she finally saw that he was eating but he stopped her; "So, when am I leaving?"

"What?" Emersyn asked, spoon halfway to her mouth.

"When do I leave?" Yoongi asked again, still not looking up to Emersyn. "When are you taking me back? I can't satisfy you or your friends. You don't need me here."

"Yoon... Yoongi... I..." Emersyn was confused, or completely beyond that.

"I'm sorry I wasn't good for you. I promise I'll leave quietly, I'm already packed. I have left everything you've bought me in it's place." Yoongi continued talking, not have completely heard Emersyn stutter. "When did you want to send me back?"

So maybe confused wasn't the correct emotion to feel right now, anger could have been something, maybe a sudden willingness to hunt down his previous owners and make them pay was another thing. That was a good suggestion for Emersyn, to hunt down whoever it was to turn such an amazing man, an amazing person, into this shell of a man. 

"Yoongi, I'm not going to send you back." Emersyn words only caused Yoongi's ears on his head to flicker uncontrollably, she could see the ends of his tail curl around his own waist. "Yoongi, I'm not... I mean... you... okay..." Emersyn took a deep breath, trying to calm her emotions. "Would you like to go back?"

That question seemed to be the golden one, it caused Yoongi to look up and at the woman across from him. She was giving him a choice, she was actually allowing him to choose whether he went back or stayed with her. No one had ever given him that choice before, no human had ever given him that choice.

"I'll do whatever you'd want me to." Yoongi said instead of answer.

"No, Yoongi," Emersyn missed how Yoongi shivered when she spoke his name. "The choice is yours. If you would like to go back, then you can go back when the boys come to visit tomorrow."

"Their coming?" Yoongi stared wide eyed at Emersyn, for the first time in a long time, hope shone.

"They'll be here tomorrow afternoon. If you wish to leave, I'm sure they'll love to have you go back home." Emersyn couldn't look at Yoongi now, giving him exactly what he wants, and losing everything she could have. "I'll make arrangements for you, make sure you pack everything, even the stuff you bought while here, it's yours."

Emersyn stood from her chair, walking away from a stunned Yoongi still sitting at the table, watching Emersyn walk away. She had given him the option and even gave more for the choice he wanted to make, giving him everything he wanted. Yoongi could never quiet understand Emersyn, he could never fully grasp what her intentions are with him. Yet, here she was, giving him everything he could ask for when he never asked for a thing, not really asked for but maybe... or she... Yoongi never quiet knew what it was that Emersyn was doing for him, and maybe, maybe he wasn't strong enough to ask what she ever gained from him being here. 

She would never allow Yoongi to hear her, not the way she completely broke down as soon as her door was closed. The cry that raked through Emersyn's body came suddenly and loudly, a little too loudly before she tried to silence her cries. Moving through her room, Y/N ended up in the place she always ended up when everything got too much, when everything felt like it was moving in on her. Stuffing herself into the bottom on the wardrobe, Emersyn cried and cried, not realizing that the hybrid in the kitchen could hear every heartbreaking moment.