Goodnight n Go 🖤 Calum Hood

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TW// ALCOHOL, BLOOD, DEPRESSION

-Ava-

I was dancing with Kat and Maya for a while because I haven't seen in them in month. "I think I'm going to get a drink." I excused myself from the dance floor and went to the bar. I ordered a whiskey and stood beside the bar watching everyone I love talk amongst themselves and dance. I took a sip of my whiskey when I noticed I couldn't find Calum with his friends. I shrugged it off and finished my drink then asked for another one. This night feels so unreal.

A bad feeling formed in my gut when I still couldn't find Calum. The music was loud so I couldn't call out his name. I left the bar and went back to the dance floor and found Luke who was clearly drunk, "Have you seen Calum?" I tap on Luke's shoulder. He turns around and smiles "Ava!" Luke slurs and I laugh at him. "Luke, have you seen Calum?" I ask another time. Luke shook his head no and went back to dancing. I don't know why I couldn't shake this bad feeling away but I trust my intuition more than anything. I felt my body become buzzed as I down my 2nd drink before leaving the party to go look for him. I walk toward the doors of the club entrance and walk outside. Maybe Calum is outside smoking?

I step out and look to my right, a girl is pressed against the wall of the club with a man leaning into her. I gave a second look and it was Calum clearly somewhat drunk. I froze. I saw who the girl was and it was one of his ex girlfriends. She placed her hand on his chest as she laughed then leans in to kiss him. My eyes started to sting with tears. Is this a fucking joke? He throws this party for us and then does this. I don't understand what is happening. I walk back inside not wanting to confront him because I don't want to make a scene. I went to the table where I set my things at and grabbed my purse and I ordered an uber. Everyone was still having a great time and I just stood there not being noticed. When my uber came I went out the back way so I didn't see Calum.

My first instinct was to start looking at flights that leave tonight to the states and found one. When I got back to the house I quickly started packing, my phone started blowing up with calls. I order a cab to airport and turned off my phone. I walked out the house and got in the cab, I know what I'm doing isn't the best but I can not stay here.

"I saw you guys had a seat left for the flight back to the states." I walked up the check in desk to buy the ticket back home. I went through security and boarded the plane. When I sat in my seat I saw myself in the reflection of my phone, my makeup was running down my life. 'Oh god' I thought to myself. I feel so betrayed and angry, being drunk doesn't excuse anyones actions. Why did he do it? I am really never enough for anyone. Not even for the love of my life.

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It has been two days since I left and I locked myself up in my apartment in LA. Empty bottles of whiskey littered the living room where I have been sleeping. I can't bring myself to go to my room. "Mom, I think I need to come home." I said into the phone trying not to breakdown. "You're always welcomed to come home." My mom echoes through the line. "I'm getting a flight hopefully by the morning. I'll text you when I do." I hang up the phone. Here I am in the empty apartment once again but this time in worse shape then the first breakup.

C:Where are you?

C:Please...we need to talk

C:Did you turn off your location?!

C:Ava baby...please tell you're safe at least

I watched messages flood my phone. The door burst open to Kat and Maya rushing in the apartment. They looked at me in a mess of bottles "I knew she would be here." Maya says to Kat, I took another swig of whiskey which doesn't make me feel a thing anymore. "Ava, what the fuck happened?" Kat exclaims as she starts to pick up the empty bottles.

I burst into tears and scream, my breathing becoming heavy and uneven. I began to shake and fall off the couch, I hit the ground hard and not being able feeling my head hitting the coffee table. "Ava! you're bleeding." Maya helps me sit up on the ground. I bring my hands to my temple and felt warm blood.

I just stared at my blood covered hand. "Ava baby, please tell us what happened?" Kat said putting a washcloth to my head trying to stop the bleeding. I took a deep shaky breath "Calum was with his ex at the party...when I was at the bar I had a bad feeling that something was happening and of course my gut being right I walked outside to find him." I became choked up again. Kat still applying pressure to my wound "That fucker. I knew he was doing something he shouldn't be that night." she swears. "See what happens when people go to clubs! I told him maybe he should the party at his moms house but no he insisted a club." Maya rants as she holds my hand.

"So when I saw him I left and got on the next flight back home." I finished up the story. I wiped my tears away with my blood stained hands. "I am so stupid for ever getting back together with him." I became angry all over again. I threw the bottle of whiskey at wall and watched the glass shatter. "I'm sorry." I quickly apologize for my drunk actions and got up to start picking up the shards of glass. "Ava sit down I'll clean up. You're not well right now." Maya said as I cut my hand with glass.

"Oh no." I slurred not realizing how deep the cut is. "Fuck, Ava we are taking you to hospital." Kat states, they put my shoes on my feet and helped me to Kat's car. I felt my vision on in and out due to the blood coming from my hand and head. "Please stay awake, Ava." Maya pats my face but I suddenly go out.