Goodnight n Go 🖤 Calum Hood

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TW//BLOOD,TALK OF S*ICIDE AND SELF HARM, ALCOHOL, HOSPITALS

-Calum-

"You did what?" Luke screams at me, I groaned "I hooked up with my ex at the club." as we got off the plane. "That's why Ava left and is lost!" Luke is still screaming while we packed up the car with our things. I could feel everyone's rage and disappointed. "I'm a fucking idiot. I got fucking wasted and she was there and I just fucked u-" I was cut off by Luke's phone ringing, it was Maya.

"Where are you guys?" Maya sounds panicked through the phone sounds like she has been crying, then a scream comes through the line "I'm not enough for anyone...I don't want to be here!" Ava screams. My heart shatters "Fuck, Ava we are taking you to hospital." Kat voice appears. "We'll head to hospital." Luke ends the call. I tugged on my hair as start to breakdown, Ashton pats my back and I push him off "I don't deserve your sympathy." I growled "You fucked up but you're my brother." Ashton comforts me. I could feel myself get sick to my stomach as Ava's cries echo through my head.

The car stops in the parking lot of the hospital, and see Maya and Kat carrying in Ava who is kicking and screaming. "We could use some help." Maya waves us over. "Not you...you've done enough." Kat glares at me, "Give me her!" I scooped Ava in my arms ignoring Kat trying to restrain her from running off. "Calum doesn't love me...I shouldn't be here anymore." Ava pleads over and over again, her tears mixed in with blood dripping down her face the temple of her head. Her blood stained my shirt and skin on my arms. She looks me in eyes and sobs "Calum doesn't want me..." Ava starts to scream again. Soon doctors come out to the emergency entrance with a bed for Ava.

They took from my arms and Maya and Kat went with the doctors who sedate Ava. The guys and I follow behind them. "I think she has been on a binge before we got home and found her. She became hysterical fell off the couch hit her head on the coffee table then threw a bottle tried to clean it up which made her cut the left hand...then she-" Maya breathes in and out before finishing her sentence. "She dragged the glass across her arms in an attempt of killing herself." Maya is drowning in her tears at the end of her statement to the doctor.

We all stood outside the hospital room as they fixed Ava up, the nurse offered me scrubs to change into and a shower to get Ava's blood off. "No." I said as I look down at the blood all over my body. I felt close to her with her blood on my shirt and arms. I need to remember this moment. "Calum, you should go home and shower." Michael suggested. I shot him a glare then went backing to studying the blood.

An hour later the doctor came to Kat and Maya to update them about Ava. "You were right about her binge, she was close to alcohol poisoning. We found other cuts on her body from self affliction. She has no sign of infection so far but we need her to stay another two days to keep an eye on the healing and we need to talk to her about rehab after she wakes up." Doctor finishes up and goes to his next patient. The girls hug each other before walking over us.

"How is she doing?" I blurted out and felt so helpless. They glare at me "She almost had alcohol poisoning from her binge and umm...she had relapse with her self harm." Kat said while looking at ground. "Ava is going to be here for another 2 days so you can leave." Maya states. "I'm not going anywhere until she wakes up." I said and everyone disagreed with me. I know I am the last person who should be staying but I know she would want me here. "Well I guess we are all staying." Ashton says making himself comfortable on the waiting room chair.

"We should take turns being in the room for whenever she wakes up...but not you." Maya suggests and excludes me. "Fine." I throw myself down in the chair next to Ashton. "You're the reason why she is in here in the first place. You couldn't just have her...you had to have something else." Kat hisses at me. My blood starts to boil "I was drunk...I know I fucked up. I don't need you rubbing it my face." I stood up and walked outside to smoke. I brought the cigarette to my mouth and I could smell the blood on my hands as I lit the cigarette.

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It's the last day of Ava being in the hospital and we are still waiting for her to wake up from her sedation. I haven't left the waiting room since we got here. I still had her blood all over me. I couldn't bring myself to wash her away. It is Luke's hour of being in the room where I exiled from. "I should be in there." I muttered as I watch in agony. "Well Cal, maybe you shouldn't have done what you did." Maya words hurt me more and more. "I fucking told you that I was sorry and I know I messed up." I raised my voice which made Maya get in my face and start screaming at me. Kat joins her in yelling at me, I kept my face straight and taking in the insults.

I deserve this. I look in the room and my eyes met Ava's. My baby is awake. I push Kat to the side and made my way to the door, Luke beats me to the punch. "I don't think it's a good idea, mate." Luke pushed me away. "Luke fucking move...I'm afraid to beat the shit out of you." I spat at him. Luke grabs my collar and pushes me out the door against the wall in the hallway. "I need to see her..." I felt myself start to cry. "You know she isn't well enough to handle you right now." Luke gets in my face released his grip on me.

"I just want to look at her!" I slide down the wall sobbing. Maya and Kat start yelling at me again then Luke joins in. "All of you need to leave now." A nurse came up to the quarrel and had security escort us out of the building. "Good fucking going Calum. We got kicked out." Kat yells out as we sit on the curb of the sidewalk. "You're the one who started yelling." I roll my eyes. "We need to calm down and stop fighting...it's going to make Ava feel worse." Luke states, we all fell silent because he was right.