For people that aren't loved

Prologue

Hi. I'm Nico Ernest Campos.
Born on 5th November 2000 at 11:20p.m. Which means I'm a Scorpio with a Pisces moon.
I'm already older then this version of myself. I already know what happens. Who I will love and who I will hate. The current year you will read in is 2017. So I'm 17 years old.
My sister died in 2010. She was only 7 when that happened. She was my everything. The true reason to be happy. After that my whole life went downhill. Somehow I lost friends even though they didn't know about that. I was an people pleaser so I kept that going even though they are all fake and would talk bad about me every second I go away. They all talked about eachother behind their backs. That made my depression only worse. It never got better until my parents finally decided to move to London. The new beginning of a better life. No more pretending. Being able to be quiet and no one acts to care about you. Being able to concentrate and I may life my dream. I have a lot of dreams but this one dream is becoming a singer. Me and my sister wanted to build a band when we grow up so I decided to live our dream for her but alone. I am really shy and have a lot of insecurities because of my stupid school i went to. That's one reason why I can't become famous like others. Another reason is I don't want to be famous is because a lot of people want to be an actor or singer when they grow up just for the money and I don't wanna be seen as that. I want to be myself and not just someone basic who gives up their whole life to get money and that everyone loves my fake self. I never know if they famous people are lying but I am interested in their movies or music. I grew up listening to Fall out boy and Green Day. That's what me and my sister inspired. Their music is absolutely amazing and I listen to the a lot. Of course there are other artists that I find interesting but it usually listen to them. No one at my old school liked 'old' music and they all listened to some kind of rap which I hated with my whole human being. The next day will be the day I'm having my first day at school. If it will be good is a good question for me or if there are nice people if I even dare to speak. I hate committing except you're really close to me. Close means close friend. I don't want to date that young. Sometimes I think love is just a fairy because I never felt any kind of romantic love. Only platonic. Well that is kind of my life in the beginning of 2017. The best part is about to happen. The whole year was a mess. I guess you have to see yourself...