vowed ➼ ziam mayne

fourteen

the door opened 

zayn stood in front of liam, his mouth parting in surprise. his hair was messy, his lips looked as pink as ever, the sunshine shone over him. it made him and his shadow golden. he was beautiful. zayn was beautiful to liam. feelings or no feelings 

"um hi" liam greeted him 

"hi?" zayn said uncertainly. liam didn't know how and why this got so awkward

"c-can i talk to you. please?" liam asked 

"oh so you completely ignore me for a what? a week, maybe two. you act weird, practically kick me out of your house and now you suddenly want to talk?" zayn said coldly. liam ached to hold him, tell him he was sorry

"zayn look-" liam began 

"just go" zayn snapped. he was about to shut the door on liam's face when liam stopped him 

"please?" liam whispered. it was somewhere between a question and a plead. zayn's shoulders slumped and he gave a resigned sigh

"this better be good" zayn warned and ushered liam in 

liam went in and zayn looked at him expectantly, arms crossed over his chest

"look zayn. i'm sorry about how i-i acted that day-"

"good. you better be" zayn said tartly. liam closed his eyes

"zayn please. i won't be able to get through this if you keep talking in between. just let me talk. and you can say whatever after" liam said softly. zayn nodded 

"i'm sorry about my ill behavior. i shouldn't have acted that way. i-i was just sad and confused and angry. anyways about o-our k-kiss. it was great kiss zayn. but um something....something has happened in my past and i don't think i'm ready for a relationship just yet. and i wanna go back to be friends zayn. you're an amazing guy and an even better friend. i don't wanna ruin it because of me. i'm sorry if i hurt you in any way possible, zayn, i really am" liam finished quietly

zayn was staring at him, though liam didn't know why. in one swift motion zayn was beside liam, his arms around him. there was nothing romantic about it, just a friendly hug

this is how it was supposed to be, liam thought, philia not eros 

it was what it was supposed to be, not what he wanted 

"i'm sorry too" zayn said " i didn't know" 

"it's okay" liam assured him 

zayn suddenly burst out laughing. liam looked at him, surprised. the sound of his voice tugged at liam's heart 

"what's so funny?" liam asked amusedly 

"i don't know....it's just so....sappy" zayn said in between giggles 

"and sappy things make you laugh?" liam asked incredulously 

"call me horrible...but yes"

liam playfully hit zayn's shoulder

"you're so rude" liam exclaimed and zayn laughed even louder 

liam joined him. the boys laughing like there's no tomorrow 

zayn stopped laughing. liam caught zayn watching him intently

"you okay?" liam asked him 

"just fine liam. just fine" 

a/n: you know that one song u have a soul connection with? yeah. for me its prolly gon be sweater weather and every one direction/solo song ever 

and i double updated !!

-niall