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Roses & A movie

I didn't sleep good at all. I was up most of the night worried about Ryan.

He hadn't texted or called since last night.

I made the coffee the lady asked for and handed it to her. She rudely took it and walked out.

I know I was slacking today but I couldn't help it. Lina wasn't here today maybe she was sick. So Rachel was In charge.

" You okay?" Rachel asked.

I nodded and yawned. " yeah just didn't sleep well."

Bex laughed. " probably couldn't stop sucking dick."

I slammed the pen on the table and looked back at her. She was laughing.

I walked over to her. " listen bitch, I think I've put up with you attitude long enough. I suggest you stop and start acting like an adult. I get it you don't like me but I'm not in the mood for you shit today."

It went absolutely silent in the cafe. I didn't even realize what I had said until I said it. Bex looked really mad and she just flipped me off and walked away.

Rachel didn't say anything and neither did anyone else. I honestly felt better by saying that.

The good thing was she never once bothered me again that day.

Ryan texted me earlier and asked if he could come over. I told him to come by my house around 6:30 when I got off.

I didn't have much longer until I did get off.

I took a few more orders and made some food and then clocked out for the day. I said goodbye to everyone and headed out.

When I got home I saw Ryan's car in the driveway but he wasn't in it. Where was he? My door was locked so I don't know how he expected to get in.

I went to unlock it but it was already unlocked. That's weird.

I walked in and Ryan was standing in the hall. I jumped. " Jesus Ryan!"

He laughed. " sorry."

He pulled out some roses from behind him. " I wanted to apologize for acting the way I did."

I smiled at him and he showed me a movie. I nodded and went and fixed some popcorn.

It was a sad movie, I thought. He was laughing through out it.

I put my hand into the bowl only for it to connect with his. I looked at him and swallowed. He pulled his hand out and nodded toward the bowl.

I took some and then he got some.

After that movie we watched a scary movie. I didn't realize I had scooted really close to him until he put his arm around me.

I looked at his hand and then at him.

He looked at me and smiled and then scooted toward me.

He leaned really close to me and put his hand on the side of my face. I put my hand in my lap cause I didn't know where else to put it.

His lips touched mine and I felt like I had exploded. His lips were soft and his hands were really rough but I didn't care.

His hand traveled to my shirt he pulled on it and I mumbled a yes. His hands glided up toward my boobs and his hands grazed over one of them.

He pulled away and looked away from me.

I grabbed his hand but he jerked away from me. He got up and didn't say anything and walked out.

Are you serious. What did I do?

I sat there and tears soaked my eyes. He doesn't want me. He just wants me to feel bad. He always leaves.

No. I will not feel this way. I wiped the tears from my eyes.

He's not going to make me feel weak.
He's not mine.
He just wants me to feel bad after he leaves but I won't.

I'm mad at him. How could he? Kiss me and walk out? Like he didn't know I had feelings?

I turned the tv off and went up stairs. I shut my door and changed into my T-shirt and panties. I lied down and turned the lamp off.

I was going to ignore him for the entire day tomorrow.

I hope.