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Girls day

I told myself that I was going to ignore Ryan all day and not once think about him. So I messaged Rachel and Asked if she wanted to hang out.

We went to get our hair done first. I had highlights added to mine. She dyed hers a light brown.

After we got our hair done we went and had our nails and toenails done. It honestly was relaxing.

It was a much needed day. I'm so happy I have someone who I absolutely love to spend it with me.

We ate at Paul's cause Lina's wasn't open today. Paul's was the best restaurant in town besides the one I work at.

" omg Launa I am so glad you invited me today. This was nice. Thank you." Rachel said.

I nodded. " yeah it was and you're welcome."

We had so much in the car that unloading everything was a pain in the ass. I helped Rachel and she helped me.

After a long day with Rachel, I decided to set into the kitchen and drink some water while looking on my laptop.

Everything that was broken and torn up I threw away. It took me forever to do it but I did it.

I got ahold of my mom and she can email me which means she's recovering or had good behavior.

I was so proud of her honestly and I'm glad she's trying to better herself for me.

I've gotten several messages from what's his face. I haven't opened or replied to any. I haven't even been on my phone today.

A knock came at the door and I set the water down and opened the door.

There was a package sitting on the porch and I looked around to see if anyone was out there.

I took the package inside and set it on the counter.

I took a knife from the drawer and slowly began cutting the box open.

It didn't say who it was from so I was a little afraid.

When I opened it. I looked inside and it was a dozen of roses, a teddy bear and some chocolate covered strawberries.

A note was attached to the teddy bear.

Launa,
I'm sorry about the way I acted. Here's a gift I hope you like it.
Ryan

I sighed. I should be mad at him but it's so hard to stay mad at him. He makes me feel so bad about not talking to him.

I decided to call him and tell him to come over. Maybe he'll sleep with you my subconscious says. Omg that's so not going to happen.

" Hello?" He answered on the second ring.

" are you busy?" I ask.

He clears his throat. " no why?"

I bit my lip. " well I got your gift and I wanted to talk to you."

" okay. I'll be right over." He said and hung up.

I was sitting in my pink T-shirt that went down to my knees and short white shorts.

A knock came at the door and I got up and opened the door. Ryan was in sweatpants and a hoodie.

I opened the door wide enough so he could come in.

He walked in and sat on the couch. " did you like the gift?"

I sat next to him. " Yes I did. It was really sweet."

He clicked his tongue and rubbed his hands together. " so uh what did you want to talk about?"

I was too busy staring at him that I had no idea what he even asked. " W-what?"

He laughed. " What did you want to talk about?"

I chuckled. " oh yeah."

I really didn't need to talk to him I just wanted him over here.

He stared at me waiting for my answer.

He sighed. " you don't really want to talk do you?"

I looked down. " I just.. didn't want to be alone."

He lifted my head up with his hand. " why did you just say that? I would have came either way."

" cause I was afraid to ask.. I just.. you've been acting strange lately and I was worried about you, Ryan. You never answer my calls or my texts and I wor..."

Before I could finish Ryan presses his lips against mine. I was shocked at first but kissed him pack. His hands was rough but I didn't mind.

I layed down and Ryan layed on top of me. He kept kissing me never once breaking it.

I grabbed his hand and led it toward my leg. He got the idea and rubbed up and down.

He suddenly jumped off me and stood up.

" what? I'm sorry was that too far?" I asked a little embarrassed.

He looked at me like I was the most disgusting human being ever. " listen. I think I should have made this clear before but you should stay away from me. Okay? I'm not the one for you."

I looked at him confused. " What? Why? Ryan please talk to me."

Ryan shook his head. He stepped really close to me. " I'm sorry okay? I shouldn't have let it go on this far."

I felt the tears burning my eyes.

He knew exactly what he was doing. He wanted to hurt me. He wanted me to feel like I'm worth nothing.

" I think you should go." I said.

He looked down.

He was about to say something but slammed the door shut.

I let the sobs escape I couldn't help it. He hurt me again. I didn't know what I did. Maybe I took it to far. Or maybe that girl was right.

He wanted to use me.