𝗜𝗻𝗱𝗼𝗼𝗿 𝗴𝗶𝗿𝗹 || 𝖪𝖳𝖧 ✔

; chapter 6

+ ° . * ♡ Y/N's POV ♡ * . ° +

Wait, don't tell me he have suicide disorder before. It doesn't suit with him at all. He used to look so happy.

I frowning my eyebrows. "how do you know that's the way? Have you feel this way before?" I curiously ask, staring down to him.

"I do, but for once when my mom caught me made a slightly cut on my hand" he said while keep on treating my wound. But I know deep inside of him, he also have a dark past.

"Hey, do you want to share it with me? If you want to" I said, offering him if I could be a listener for him.

Taehyung smiled with his eyes locked down to my hand, totally focusing on treating every cut and bruises I had. "sure, I also need a good listener right now" he said.

"I will try" I said, smiling back.

Finally, Taehyung did the last part by wrapped the bandage my wrist to arms to prevent the germ get into my wounds.

"thanks" I said while keep giving him a warm smile.

"don't mention it." he replied as he take a seat on the edge of the bed next to me. "You sure you want to hear my past life story?" he ask.

"with no doubt" I said.

"alright. So last year, one day before New year, my dad got into a big fight with my mom. It totally the biggest fight they've never had before. My mom was like a best friend to me. If someone mess with my mom, that's mean they mess with me. Right on that day, I caught my parents having a fight" Taehyung sighed, telling me about his past.

While I look at him guilty. "do they know that you actually know about them always having fight?" I ask.

Taehyung shake his head.

"They didn't. They thought I didn't know of them fighting but I actually are, I even lose count how many times they're fighting, just like your parents. I decide to not interfere their problems but not this time, my dad literally had my blood boiled by slapping my mom really bad, making her lose her balance from standing. So I decide to stand up for my mom, confront him but he refused to and wanted to hurt my mom again when I finally raised my hand to throw a strong punch..." he paused with that sorrow look in his face.

I can imagine how he look when his parents having a fight and that the look. The sorrow look like I've had whenever my parents got into fighting.

"You know, I wasn't intent to do that to him but I've lost my temper. I almost make him passed out. I never hurt someone so much before. After I throw a strong punch to him, I storm to the kitchen with so many anxiety and suicide thought creeping in my mind. I was so done with my school problem, my grade, my football team, especially my parents problem. I began to lose my common sense. I couldn't thinking of anything until my eyes caught the knife, I grab it and I leave a slightly cut on my hand. It hurt yet it feels good honestly" he said.

I widened my eyes a lil, staring to him wordlessly. Taehyung didn't joke about him having a suicide disorder before. The way he feel it and the way the thought creeping in his mind were exact same as how I got the suicide disorder.

"...and then, my mom caught me doing it. I was about to having another cut when my mom quickly stopped me, hugging me really tight. That was the first and last time I has suicide disorder. She said what making me hurting myself and then, I telling all my problem to her. Right after I tell her that, she immediately decide for us to move out and transferring me to new highschool on the next two day. And then after we moved here, we started our new life without my dad, new house, new highschool, new football team and new best friend" at the last word he saying, he looked up to me, giving a warm yet a soft smile to me.