Why I Love You - ingame + Pregame Oumota

chapter 14 (pregame)

~CHRISTMAS TIME

KOKICHI POV

Times passed. And Christmas made its comeback. Me, Kaito, Kiibo, Tenko and Maki became a group of friends ever since the first day, our purpose at first was to just eat in peace but i wasn't expecting it to become a routine.

And again, me and Kaito were just walking to school. Kaito was busy scrolling on twitter while he was walking, so i didn't really talk to him

"..Sup." Kiibo told us as he approached us from behind as always "oh hey!" Kaito answered

"I see you'll go silent mood on again huh" Kiibo told Kaito "waddya mean?" Kaito asked

"Come on Kaito! I think everyone knows now that you never talk when it comes to social media." I told him "oh come on, i mean you're not wrong but uh.." he answered us, Kiibo chuckled and smirked at me knowing Kaito probably won't talk until we arrive at school.

And so he did. Maki and Tenko approached us
"Merry Christmas." Maki said looking at the floor "At least say it with emotions." Kaito told her jokingly, "Shut up." Maki answered slightly smiling.

"Hey, i am going to the rooftop now, it's.. very crowded here so..." I told them, gladly they already know that i have anxiety, and they thankfully understood it. "Alright, be careful tho" Kaito told me, i smiled and nodded then hurried to the rooftop.

I stood at the place that me, Kaito and the rest usually eat lunch at. I just. Stood there. Not doing anything nor thinking about doing anything

"Hey, Kokichi" i heard. And i already knew who it was. I didn't look behind me, it was probably stupid but i decided not to look behind me. That's until they put their hand on my shoulder

"Heyyy, C'mon, i know you can hear me" He told me, "I kn- know that you know.. Saihara.." i answered. "Hmmm. Rude. You won't even turn around to look at me" he told me

"No it's nothing it's just.. i don't feel comfortable looking into people's eyes... Even when i am really close to that person." I told him

"Anxiety, I see. Well i guess that's normal. You became a bit more braver than i remember though" he answered me. "I guess..." I said trying to make him go away

"Hey, are you believing all those bad rumors about me?" He asked. And i wish he didn't. "I mean... I don't believe them nor do i believe them.. i just decided not to pick a side since i don't want to make a bad decision." I told him

"Well you have to pick a side. You have to see through everything. Even a thing that's simple as hell could destroy your whole life. For example." Shuichi said as he took out a piece of candy "see that? It's just a normal piece of candy. One that i personally like. This thing. It could have something bad in it. And when i eat it something could happen to me that i have to go to the hospital." He continued. I noticed that his body started getting closer to me. I got more uncomfortable.

"But.. what if i am forced to choose to eat this candy or not? Well of course i have to pick a choice." He said.. well seems like this guy really doesn't shut up...

Shuichi put the piece of candy back to his pocket. And suddenly he wrapped his arms around me "So, do you choose to trust me or not? Do you choose to believe in the rumors or not?" He whispered to my ear. Making my back rest on his chest and stomach.

"I... Still don't pick a choice..." I answered. As i noticed his hand got closer to my crotch. And he seemed like he wrapped his other arm around me so that I can't leave

"Huh? Well in your situation, what are you going to do if you won't pick a choice? Maybe i'm nothing but a normal nice guy, and maybe i am a psychopath who killed almost 100 girls, so?" As he continued to speak i felt like i can't breathe.. probably just because of his horrifying examples... "I'll.. pick to stay away from you." I answered him after a few seconds passed.

"Huh?" He said "if i don't interact with you then i won't be mean to you nor will i be nice to you..! So that's why i chose this." I told him, my heart skipped beats, i remembered when Kaito used to beat me up.. and i was scared Shuichi would do too, as i noticed his arms loosened a bit, i unwrapped them "i'm sorry!" I started running away.

But he held my wrist "Hey! It's okay. I am not the asshole Kaito. I won't beat you up!" He said. And honestly, he was rather smirking than just smiling... "Is he trying to apart me from Kaito?" I thought to myself..

"Kaito is.. my boyfriend." I told Shuichi as i forced him to let go of my wrist. "What..?" Shuichi asked. "Kaito is my boyfriend. don't talk about him like that. He isn't an asshole." I told him

"Oh come on! He's probably just fooling you. And you're falling into his obvious trap! Don't you remember the years of pain? He bullied you for 4 years! Why would he decide to just become nice to you?" He told me.

I finally was able to look into his eyes, thanks to my anger. "You don't..." I said. "I don't what?" He asked me waiting for me to continue. I shook my head "you don't know about him as much as i do." I said as i finally left the rooftop and went to a crowded place where Shuichi couldn't bother me.

I went to my classroom and found my friends there. "Oh! hey Kokichi!" Kaito smiled at me. I didn't answer, Kaito already understood something happened "You're in a bad mood." He said. I nodded as i sat at my seat "Shuichi came and tried to fool me, also talked shit about you." I said as i pointed as Kaito.

"You're in a bad mood because he disrespected me?" He asked and i nodded "oh come on! I myself wouldn't get upset over something like that." He told me

"You aren't?" I asked, "I mean, why would i care about what an asshole thinks of me? What is he gonna do to me by his opinion? Ask god to make me go to hell?" He told me like if it was nothing. "I like the attitude" Tenko said.

I slowly hugged Kaito and he almost didn't notice i was hugging him at first.. i started thinking he didn't even notice at all as i felt a gentle touch on my head, a hand stroking my hair while he pulled me closer to him.

I continued the school day like if nothing happened. Thankfully Shuichi didn't approach me again. I felt kind of bad because of how i treated him... Maybe he really is a nice guy, but i don't want to get involved with him... I already suffered enough. Risks aren't worth it...

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Hi i am so sorry this took so fucking long. And it's even short. Because i am a piece of shit. Anyways i hope you enjoyed. And i might start writing another fanfic, but for now i am focusing on this one. Anyways yeah. Tysm for supporting this and tysm for 100+ votes!! You guys really cheered me up!