teenage love (poly) ✔️

| fourteen |

⚠️TW: talks about suicide & cutting⚠️
* please read in font : georgia also play the song the whole chapter *
- flashback to april 17, 2040 -
i wake up and seems as such a depressing day as it's raining heavily and i open my phone to check my socials and i have no internet, as i go into my bathroom i try to try on my light and it's not working. "mom the power's out!" i yell "i know, hopefully it will come back but they said school is still a go for now" my mom says and i nod very annoyed since all the work we do now is just on our computers so it's literally so dumb to go to school when the power is out but i continued to try and get ready anyway. i looked down at my arms and noticed the fresh cuts on my wrists and decided to look for a long sleeve shirt and just some leggings and call it day. i walk downstairs and then my mom's phone goes off and i hand it to her "it's school" i say and she answers it "hello?" my mom says "we regret to inform you and your family of a passing of a classmate that was very dear to your daughter" they say "who was it" my mom says and i gulp "maxwell simmons, the teachers said they've been seen together a lot" they say and my mom covers her mouth and i run out of the room and go up the secret box of blades i've had hidden in my closet from last year one of the worst years of my life. the year that my grandma died, her and i were very close so it was a very painful time. i take out one of the sharpest blade and then i start the shower and hop in so i don't get blood everywhere and i grab the blade and make a deep gash into my thigh and then another and then i make another one of both of my wrists. i lay down on the ground of the shower and let the water touch my skin as i try to die. my heartbeat starts to slow down and then i hear my bathroom door swing open and then my mom comes into the bathroom and opens the curtains because she sees the blood falling from my wrists onto the ground door by drop "hadley!" she screams and her screams get quieter and quieter and my vision starts to fade. everything goes completely blank and seems like a inescapable black pit of nothing then i see the bright white light and my eyes start to flutter open "she's been out for ten minutes please get my baby back" she's screaming "it's so bright" i say quietly "hadley baby, mommy's here" she says into my ear "why is everything so bright" i say "hadley everything's okay" my mom says into my ear "everything's not fine mom, max is dead, my boyfriend is dead and i know why. why wouldn't you let me be there with him" i let out as tears start to flow down my face "children are not supposed to outlive their parents" she said "but i'm not happy here, and you guys are never here for me and holden.. nessa and aunt dix are like my real moms so stop acting like you actually love me because if you did you would've been here when grandma died and not left me and holden with aunt dix as you went to italy to 'numb the feelings'" i say with air quotes "hadley you can't blame me for that, i was very close to my mom" she says "really that's why you never visited her" i say and i flip her off and look at my wrists and notice bandages and get off the ground because the emergency paramedic was all done wrapping up my thighs "thank you sir" i say as i step out of my bathroom and i grab a towel and the guy looks at my butt before he goes downstairs and my mom shows him out "mom why wouldn't you put a towel over me or ask for a women that guy was a pervert, he just looked at my ass and smiled" i yell "i thought you were dead, i just wanted you back with me so i called 911 and he was the person that rushed over to save you hads, i couldn't control that" she says "well you could've at least put a towel over my body" i say annoyed and i slam my bedroom door shut. i look down at my phone to see a picture of me and max kissing it was taken by ava when we were on a double date and i start to break down crying again then my phone starts to ring and it's maxwell's number "hello?" i say sadly "hey dear, it's me mrs. simmons, i'm maxwell's mom and i know you two were dating and i just wanted you to know that he said he loved you" she says and i try to hold back tears "if you don't mind me asking, how did he die?" i ask "he committed suicide and he left this note for you, you can come by and get it if you would like and have some tea" she suggests "sure, i would love to get to know you better mrs. simmons" i say "okay, bye dear" she says "bye mrs. simmons" i say and then i hang up. i get changed into the clothes i was wearing earlier and go downstairs "hads where are you going?" my mom asks as i grab my keys from the kitchen drawer "i'm going to max's house to talk to his mom" i say "hadley i don't think you should, it's a little too soon, don't you think?" she says "no, i just want to know why my boyfriend is gone. my first love." i say as i go into the garage and start my car, i start backing out of the driveway and head to max's house. i get there and knock on the door and max's mom opens the door "hello mrs. simmons, thanks for inviting me" i say and she smiles "call me joy, this is the letter he wanted to give to you" she says as she hands me a piece of paper. i open the piece of paper and slowly read it.

hadley,
i'm sorry, this must be very hard to read especially since i know you were my first love and i hope i'm yours. but i couldn't handle the emotional and physical abuse that my father did to me and my brother. i know you've seen the bruises but i don't want you to think that this had anything to do with you. the only reason i wasn't dead last year was because of you. you were the only person that has ever showed me true happiness and love. but after you've had a moment to grieve move on with your life, find yourself another love.

i love you always and forever maxwell <3

- present time -
"just let me be ava please" i say as i walk out of my parents bathroom and then walk out into the hallway into my room and grab the box from the top of my closet. i place it on my bed and the first thing that's on top when i open the box is the note from maxwell and i unfold the paper and take a second and read it again. my hands start to shake and a slight smile appears on my face then someone knocks on my door and i wipe the tear form my eye "who is it?" i ask "baby it's me" kaylie says "come in" i say as i hide the box back in a decorative box and put it on top of one of my shelves. "are you okay?" she asks and i shrug "i'm fine kay" i say "you don't call me kay unless you don't want to talk to me" she says and i slowly nod "kay please get out before i break something" i say and she doesn't move "okay kaylie i'm serious get out" i yell "hey why are you yelling?" jace asks as he bursts into my room "both of you out now please" i say "why were you crying?" kaylie asks "it's none of your business" i say "ava told us everything you said" jace says and then i nod and roll my eyes "of course why wouldn't she, but please get out if you don't i swear to god" i say in a angry tone.

hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, i know it was sad and depressing but happier chapters soon to come :)