~Something Happened And I'm Head Over Heels~(Tears For Fears Roland x Curt)

What Is Wrong With Me?

Curt was sitting on Roland's bed wondering where Roland was, Roland then walk's In the room and noticed Curt sitting on his bed.
"Hey Ro" Curt smiles at Roland. Roland doesn't respond, His face doesn't change at all all he does is walk over to the bed and stare at Curt.
Out of nowhere, Roland pushes Curt over, making Curt lay flat on the bed. "Ro, what are you-" Curt's protesting gets interrupted by Roland smashing his lip's on to Curt's soft lip's
Curt had no idea what was going on, But he knew he loved every second of it. Curt kisses Roland back and embrace's Roland's forcefulness. Curt wraps his arm's around Roland While letting out a quiet moan into Roland's mouth, Roland pulls off Curt's mouth and starts to unbuttons Curt's shirt, both of the boy's are lost in lust and pleasure "mm- fuck I love you Roland" Curt Moan's while squeezing harder.
June 23rd 1979 2:47 AM
Curt wakes up with a jump, And noticed he was back on Roland's shoulder, Everything he just did was all just a dream, it was hard to believe that it didn't happen the dream felt so vivid. Curt noticed Roland had his arm around him, which made a feeling of connection happen between the two of them. Curt was surprised that Roland put his arm around him, It made blush and wonder if Roland liked him a little. But then Curt brushed it off as Roland being the nice guy he always is.
Curt slowly moves Roland's arm off him, And gets up off Roland's bed. Curt looks back at Roland sleeping and smiles at the sight, he wished he had his Polaroid camera so he could take a photo of this, he thought Roland looked adorable while he slept. Curt then goes down the hall nerviously, Roland's house seemed huge and really dark at this time of night, It made Curt feel nervous and scared. It felt like the wall's were closing in, Eventually Curt make's it to the bathroom terrified. He didn't even know why, He wished Roland was awake to be with him, to make him feel better like he always does, he needed a hug from him so bad right now. Curt thinking of Roland made him remember the dream he just had. Curt started to have a reality check, He started to feel disgusted with himself, he knew his thing on Roland was starting to get out of hand. He then uttered the words "what is wrong with me.." Curt slumps down in the corner of the bathroom crying, while having really negative thoughts about himself.
"I'm a disgusting person"
"I'm stupid for being in love with a male"
"I'm a sinner"
Curt then Remembered what his mom said to him earlier, "I am fine with you dating him, He seem's like a nice boy." Remembering this made his hurtful thoughts go away but not his sadness, Curt sits in the corner of the bathroom for what feel's like hours, He doesn't have the energy to get up and go back to Roland's room, So Curt just sits there with his head in his knee's, waiting for something happen.
Roland wakes up to a noise, He can't identify what it was, it sounds like it's coming from down the hallway. Roland look's over at his alarm clock and it read 6:37 am, He also noticed that Curt wasn't their anymore.
Roland called out Curt's name a few time's and get's no response. Roland leave's his room still calling Curt's name, And he finally heard Curt respond with "Roland?"
Roland could tell Curt was in the bathroom, So he ran down the hall and knocked on the door, "Curt, are you in there?". Inside the bathroom Curt heard the sound of Roland's voice from outside the door making him jump up, And run over to the door. "Yeah ro, I'm in here" Curt says quietly while opening up the door to see to see Roland standing there with a tired look on his face. Roland look's his best friend up and down he notices his eye's were red which make's Roland concerned. "Um Curt are you ok?, It look's like you've been crying.."
Curt hearing this made him break down and burst into tears. "Roland, I'm so fucking sorry I'm such a fuck up" Curt bawl's into Roland's sweater while jumping onto him.
Roland is confused, He doesn't know what to, all he does is hug Curt back. "What?, What's going on?" Roland ask's sounding concerned. Curt couldn't tell him about that dream, he had to make up something, But his mind was going
crazy and couldn't think. "I-I uh um- Roland I can't tell you" Curt stuttered.
"Why can't you Curt? Is it really that bad?"
"Yes.." Curt mumbles over his crying. Roland was shocked that Curt couldn't tell him what was going on, He thought they could tell each other anything. Roland then let's go of Curt, Curt didn't want to yet.
"Well I'll Respect that.., We should get back to bed it's only almost 7am..".
The Two boy's make their way away from the bathroom, Roland was a little down seeing Curt all depressed again, he couldn't figure out what could've happened since they went to sleep to change his mood so drastically. He then thought "maybe it was a nightmare?" But no person over 10 years old could get that sad over a nightmare.
Curt and Roland get back to Roland's room and stand there awkwardly.
"Hey Ro, do you want me to go downstair's and sleep on the couch?"
Roland wanted Curt to stay with him not just because he loved him, because he wanted to comfort him again. "No, it's fine you can sleep in my bed with me again, I don't really care".
This surprises Curt, He thought Roland wouldn't want him sleeping with him, he wasn't complaining though.
Curt follows Roland into his bedroom and jump's onto the bed, Roland awkwardly does the same.
Roland fall's asleep almost 5 seconds after getting back into the bed, Curt notice's Roland was already sleeping, without thinking Curt gets closer to Roland and lay's his head on his chest. Within a minute Curt fall's soundly asleep.

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I hope you liked the chapter!, sorry if that beginning was a little intense. Have a happy new year everyone! : )