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Important note

Hi if you reached in this part I want to congratulate you. Thank you for reading Gion and Jariell's journey. I just want to clear everything why I ended this book like that. (Killing both main characters of the story.)

Actually, I don't know. I can make them alive right? Like they woke up and live happily? But for me, it's time for them to rest. From the very start of this story I described the reality of life Idk if some of you get it. But let me explain.

When Gion woke up from comatose being confused it shows how reality sometimes tricked us and make us fool of things around us. Those color of the souls that only Jariell can see describes how people around us acts. We can't read all people around us. We don't know if they are true or not. Gion's character explained how human can be lost in his own world. Not, literally okay. How those people can lead us in paths the weren't sure about.

While, Jariell is a representation of those people who choose to do something that ended up in regrets. But in this story it shows that he can't change anything what he'd done but he can do something not to clear his mistake. Because first of all, Jariell didn't help Gion to clean his wrong doings. What is done is done. He just did something to create changes in Gion's life and led him to the right way. To solve his life mystery. In life, there are people we will meet and lead us in a way that we didn't expect. It might be in pain or in success and happiness.

Tyler represent those human who's always afraid. Who is coward. Being coward isn't a sin. It means he is aware of what will happen if he did something. He always think about the future. But no one can predict future isn't? And that he's mistake. He's always afraid. But why? Because he's protecting Neil. He isn't afraid for himself but for his lover. That's a thing we have in common. Tyler lives in everyone of us. We have someone or something to protect that even it made us bad or fool we don't care. But sometimes you need to stop being coward there are times we need to faced everything even our worst fear. Because we might loss something if we keep being coward along the way.

While Neil, I can't say that Neil is self-centered because he protected Gion, too together with Tyler. Hindi ko pwedeng sabihing ahas si Neil kasi inagaw niya si Tyler. His character describe our DESIRE we all have greed inside us especially if we want something and that something is our happiness right? Neil tried to stop himself. Nabanggit naman diba? Sinubukan niyang pigilan but that his desire who's Tyler really driven him in his edge. He loves Tyler and he becomes selfish and betrayed his best friend. Hindi ko sinasabing tama but I want you to remember this. In life, we have different choices. Pagpinili mo ang isa sa choices automatically those other choices will vanished. Kasi pumili kana. Hindi mo na pwedeng palitan. And choosing Tyler made Neil lose his best friend Gion. In short, in life we bond to lose something or someone for the sake of what makes us happy.

Flynn, Hmmm actually, Flynn is innocent from everything. Napuno lang siya nang galit. Masisisi ba natin? No because his feelings are valid. He did everything to make people around him proud and happy but they didn't see his worth. You know, inside us is like a glass of water. Pagnapuno 'yon aapaw right? That's what happened to his character. Naipon lahat sa loob niya hanggang napuno siya. Hindi na niya kinaya. And all of us been through in that state right? So, like what Flynn did he run away from the things that makes him worthless that makes him unloved. He run away from his supposedly home and went to someone who is really his home. Which is Oliver. He save himself from too much pain. But it's not excuse to pretend. I just want to clarify Flynn's character. He is us. He is the blues inside of us. He ran away to save himself from pain. Running isn't the answer because from the story you see he still hunted by pain even he run away. Because you need to face it and overcome it. You don't need to run away. You need to be healed.

The main point of this story is all about END THE CYCLE if it's too much for you and you feel like what's happening in your life is just a cycle you need to break that cycle. I kill my characters to create another cycle for them. In reality, I didn't mean kill yourself. Killing yourself isn't the answer. It means if you feel lost or being caged in the situation that makes you suffocate find a way to escape. If it's people who makes you worthless cut them. If it's relationship that makes you feel "lagi nalang ganito. Away bati. Hindi na ako masaya. Mas lamang ang sakit." then break free. Para sa sarili mo. In the story I created the cycle if you see it then good.

The story begin when Gion's wake up from comatose. Then I followed it with scenarios that too painful for them. Then suddenly, they coma again. You see binalik ko lang ulit sa umpisa para tapusin. Kasi kung bubuhayin ko pa sila ando'n parin ang sakit. They'll still have the same pain. Pinatay ni Jariell ang pamilya ni Gion. Tyler's father is the mastermind of everything that happened. Kung magkikita-kita sila it'll just create another pang of pain for them. They don't deserve that pain anymore. That's why in the epilogue I made Gion chose happiness. And that means, forgetting every reason that made you kneel in pain. Break free from the cycle. I do believe you can do it. That's all I hope you enjoy their journey. They are happy now and resting to each other's embrace. Thank you for reading!

[By the way if you want to read the story of Kryp and Ross just go to my works and look for "Perfect"]