Brennifer: My first true love❤️

Chapter fifty one: Guilt

(Brad's P.O.V)

I haven't been able to sleep all night. I feel so guilty that I accidentally slipped up about our baby girls' names. I don't think I've ever seen Jen so mad before and she has every right to be. I know that some of her outburst was due to her hormones but I can't help but feel that I've let her down majorly.

I'm just laying in bed with Norman next to me but I wish Jen was in his place. All I want to do is just give her a huge hug and apologise profusely but I know she needs some time which is completely understandable.

I debate on whether I should call Courteney or not just to see how Jen is... even if I don't speak to jen, I just need to know how she is. I actually decide to go to Courteney's house instead.

"Hi Court" I say really nervously

"Hi" Court replies kind of bluntly

"How is she?"

"Brad she's heartbroken. I heard her crying herself to sleep last night and I don't think you're the person she wants to speak to right now"

"It's fine that she doesn't want to talk to me but I just have to know how she's doing. She really cried herself to sleep?" I say, my eyes are now welling up at the thought of my wife crying because of a stupid and careless mistake I made

"Please just tell her I'm so so sorry and that I love her more than anyone and anything in the world" I say before I leave to go back home

(Jen's P.O.V)

I've just overheard Courteney talking to someone by the door and I'm pretty sure it was Brad. I decided to stay in my room because I'm still not ready to face him but I want to know what he said so when I heard them say 'bye' I went out into the kitchen to speak to her.

"Was that him?" I say getting a glass of water

"Yes Jen it was" Court paused not knowing if she should carry on

"What did he say?"

"He said he respects the fact that you don't want to talk to him yet but he wants you to know he's very sorry. He also said that he wants you to know that he loves you more than anything in this world and Jen... he really meant it. I could tell by his face that he's absolutely crushed and when I told him that you cried yourself to sleep last night, his eyes started to well up and that's when he left"

I don't even know what to say. I just put my head in my hands and start to cry again. Court comes to comfort me and we just hug for a few minutes until I'm finally able to speak.

"Am I overreacting? Am I being too harsh on him?"

"I don't know Jen. I know I'd be pissed if someone leaked my child's name but I know for a fact that he wouldn't do it on purpose and I think deep down you know that too but you're too hurt to see it at the moment"

Court has a point so I decide to go back into my room just to think some things over.

(Brad's P.O.V)

I know Jen doesn't want to talk to me and I totally respect that but I just have to let her know how sorry I am. I've just gotten home and I decide to write Jen a letter which I will give to Court to give to her.

Dear my sweetest Jen,

I am so so so sorry baby. I really didn't mean to slip up about the names and I've spoken to the guy who leaked that information and I went crazy on him. Jen... you know I wouldn't do it on purpose, it was just the fact that we were talking about you and his pregnant wife and it just slipped out but baby I am so sorry. I hate the thought of you being so upset and when Court told me you have been crying yourself to sleep I couldn't help but well up myself and when I got back into my car I started crying too. Come on baby, please talk to me. You have no idea how much I love you and I'd do anything for you... I'd die for you in a heartbeat. I want my amazing wife to come back home. I want to talk to my little babies again before bed time but most importantly I just want to hold you in my arms and never let go. I was so stupid and careless and I'll never be able to forgive myself. So please, if you feel up to it after you've read this, please either call me or come home. I miss you so much my beautiful baby girl.

All my love,

Brad xxxxx

That's it, the letter is written and dropped off at Court's and all I can do is wait around to see if Jen calls which I really hope she does. I just want my amazing wife to come home.

(Jen's P.O.V)

I'm sitting with Court on her deck with a glass of orange juice and we are watching the sun set. Normally I'd do this with Brad. I just miss him so much. Court comes back outside from going to answer the door and I notice she has something in her hand.

"What's that?" I ask as she just looks at me

"It's from Brad, I really think you should read it" Courteney hands me the piece of paper and I open it up and it's a letter... a letter from Brad

Dear my sweetest Jen,

I am so so so sorry baby. I really didn't mean to slip up about the names and I've spoken to the guy who leaked that information and I went crazy on him. Jen... you know I wouldn't do it on purpose, it was just the fact that we were talking about you and his pregnant wife and it just slipped out but baby I am so sorry. I hate the thought of you being so upset and when Court told me you have been crying yourself to sleep I couldn't help but well up myself and when I got back into my car I started crying too. Come on baby, please talk to me. You have no idea how much I love you and I'd do anything for you... I'd die for you in a heartbeat. I want my amazing wife to come back home. I want to talk to my little babies again before bed time but most importantly I just want to hold you in my arms and never let go. I was so stupid and careless and I'll never be able to forgive myself. So please, if you feel up to it after you've read this, please either call me or come home. I miss you so much my beautiful baby girl.

All my love,

Brad xxxxx

My eyes immediately fill with tears and I just sob into the piece of paper. I now realise that maybe I've been to harsh on him. I haven't seen him for two days and all I want to do is to go back home. I need to speak to him... I have to call him.

(Brad's P.O.V)

I'm sitting in the kitchen and I heard my phone ringing from the living room so I sprint to answer.

"Hello... Jen?" I say in a frantic voice hoping that it's Jen who's calling

"Hi, it's me" She seems so sad

"Listen baby I'm so..."

"No Brad... I'm so sorry. I overreacted and I'm so sorry. Please can you forgive me?" I hear Jen start to cry down the phone

"There's nothing to forgive baby, you did nothing wrong at all. I'm the idiot and I'm the one who needs to be forgiven. So... do you forgive me?"

"Yes I forgive you Brad... of course I do"

"Please will you come home now? I need to see you? I need to hold you?"

"Yes I'll come home. I've missed you so much and I swore I'd be mad at you forever but I guess love is stronger. Give me thirty minutes and I'll be home"

"Wait... I'll come and get you"

"My car is here babe. It's only a ten minute drive anyway"

"Jen... I love you so much"

"I love you so much too"

(Jen's P.O.V)

I quickly gather up all of my stuff, thank Court for letting me stay here and I drive as quickly and as safely as I can back home. When I pull into the driveway Brad must have heard me and he opens the door just as I'm getting out of the car. I drop all of my bags and I try to run to him but it turns into more of a waddle since I'm now 26 weeks pregnant. As soon as I reach him, I throw myself into his arms and I start sobbing into his chest.

"I'm so sorry baby, I'm so sorry" I say as I start to cry more

"Please don't cry beautiful. It's okay" Brad says as he rubs the back of my head

"Can we go and get our pyjamas on and cuddle up in bed... I'm so tired and these past two days I haven't gotten any sleep, mainly because I wasn't cuddled up to you" I say as Brad picks my bags up from the floor

We head inside and I get changed into the most fluffiest pyjamas I own and get snuggled up in bed waiting for Brad. He climbs I'm bed next to me, he gives my stomach a kiss before giving me a tender kiss on the lips. He pulls me in so my body is pressed up against his and he rubs circles on my stomach until I drift off into a peaceful sleep. I'm so glad I'm back home.