The Monster Inside - sondash

Discontinued

(Authors note #2) dec 21, 2020

Hey,I know this doesn't get as many views as my other story. I'll get straight to the point, I'm not interested in this story anymore. or this account even. I explained a lot of things in a very dramatic way on my main story, if you want to read it all go there. TL;DR I wasn't happy, I lost motivation, and my passion to write in general. this fandom no longer sparks my interest. If you did read my other Discontinued chapter in healing scars, you would know that I ended up ruining my own account and works by forcing myself to do something out of guilt instead of admitting that I didn't want to do this anymore. I'll admit, a lot of my guilt and lack of motivation came from my main story. this one I don't remember such feelings when I was writing it.  

However, I don't see myself continuing this story. while it's certainly more likely than healing scars as I can't remember any guilt coming from this story while opening and working on the drafts. granted there's only six chapters, so there wasn't much pressure as their was my main work. I had fun writing this one, I think it's because it didn't become so well known as my other one that I didn't think I needed to work my ass of to get another chapter out. even if it did get popular it was still known as a side story that was something to do when I couldn't work on Healing scars. long story short I trapped myself with unhealthy pride to keep going and ended up hating the work. It stopped me from writing in general as it robbed me of my passion to write at all. Been that way for a while. until a little under a year ago I made a new account. I'm now writing something that I like and have passion for. I won't say what that account name is, I don't want people to look at my new 'identity' and only see 'Mittiesues.' 

As of today dec 21, 2020 'Mittiesues' is dead. she don't exist anymore. It's likely that she won't come back ever. I can see myself continuing this story, I really can for some reason. however, I'm not looking to bring back a dead account that I won't put any effort into. besides, my old writing style irks me too much. I have a slightly different writing style now, more refined, has a 'feel' to it that this old one doesn't. I can't write in that style anymore, I've forgotten how to. And I think that's for the best. who knows, maybe one day I might come back to this story, as I genuinely had fun with it. It's more likely than healing scars to be frank. But that's not something I'm willing to impulsively dive into here right now. Chances are this story has already been mostly forgotten, just like healing scars. And honestly, thats ok with me. that's a fitting end.

I will say that I had fun with this story. that's not a lie. but I don't see myself rewriting it anytime soon to fit with my new writing style. or getting back into the fandom. This story ended on a good note for me, I'd like to keep it that way. I'm proud of this story, I don't want an impulsive decision to ruin that for me. To be truthful this was my favorite of the two stories. I had always thought that if I didn't finish Healing scars I would definitely finish this one. As I like to write internal conflicts of a character. Sonic's werehog form was a perfect fodder to do so. SOnic the town hero loved by everyone. the werehog hated and feared by everyone, however no one could ever hate the werehog more than Sonic. Sonic who feared that one day he would lose control. who felt insecure in his own body due to a curse. how long did he have before those emerald green eyes stayed a feral violet forever?

god I'm tempting myself here now. I would be fine writing that I guess, but that's not what you signed up for. I know I would be fine writing this without the love aspect to focus more on the fear and uncertainty that Sonic has, but how long would it be before I got bored. I can't see an end point, other than maybe the uncannon ending. I don't want to start it then have another unfinished story here with expectations. I came here to end 'Mittiesues' not revive her. 

Anyone who made it this far, congrats. You guys get a choice. I was just going to let this sit quietly in my drafts and forget about it. However I want to hear your opinions, I'm not going to continue writing this, I'm not even going to edit the part I have sitting in my drafts. I'm just going to upload it as is. Do you guys still want it knowing that it will be the absolute last part? I have a feeling a lot of you will say yes, some of you wont even respond. It will be a parting gift as 'Mittiesues' for the work I had a lot of fun with. I don't have any intention of giving more than that though. I have a feeling more will say yes though, so I'll upload it anyways. this is my final goodbye as 'Mittiesues.'

see ya! It was a pleasure to write this for you guys while it lasted, all the way up until the end.