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five

you look so broken when you cry,
once more and then i'll say goodbye

- chapter tw, rape/sexual assault

leilani hiraeth hated taking breaks from streaming. well, more specifically, coming back from those breaks. she felt her viewer counts would go down, subs wouldn't come in, or people would unfollow. but, sending out the 'lilac is live' notification eased her anxiety severely.

"hello chat! how is everybody today?" she questioned, with her usual positive tone and big smile. "today, we are joined with philza minecraft, gremlin child, and candle girl simp!" she exclaimed, earning hellos from each of them. this was her usual streaming group, minus alex and will. for obvious reasons, alex wasn't there, and wilbursoot was streaming with niki. "today we're playing among us, but creating public lobbies. who knows, some of you guys might even be able to play with us! and this totally isn't because we couldn't get a group of ten people together fast enough!" she laughed, already glad to be back with her friends and chat.

they'd been playing for two or three hours now, and lani was tired. she forgot how much energy this streaming thing took. she read the rest of her donos and subs off and ended her stream. she stuck around for the rest of theirs too, and then they started their normal post-streaming conversations. this time, the main topic was, of course, leilani and alexis. she explained what she saw, and philza, who gave her the best advice 25/8, told her that maybe, just maybe, she should try to talk it out with him. she supposed phil was right, but right now she wanted nothing to do with big q. 'ew, did i just refer to him as big q, that's embarrassing,' she thought to herself.

they ended their conversation around 5:30 in the morning, eight hours after she had started her stream. and holy shit, leilani was tired. she washed her face and took her contacts out, laid on her bed, and passed out very quickly. but, of course, today was exam day. and so she woke up at 9 am for her final day of freshman year for college, and got ready for exams. alex going to the same school as her completely passed her mind all morning, even as she got coffee at their usual coffee stop.

well, it completely passed her mind until eleven-thirty in the morning when she realized she had her next class with him. all she could do now is hope that he skipped school. but of course he didn't. and so for the next hour and a half, they sat in awkward silence.

the bell rang, and she tried to run for the door, but alexis held her wrist. "five minutes. please. that's all i need." he begged. "fine. i'm counting." she scoffed. she hated his face right now, even though that mask. she bought him that mask, after driving him the store and he had forgotten one. "i know what you saw. i know what it looked like, but you didn't see everything-" he started, getting cut off with "yeah i'm so glad i didn't see it all. why would i want to see you fucking some girl." she rolled her eyes. he ignored her and carried on, "leilani she climbed on top of me, i couldn't push her off. she took off my clothes. she took advantage of me and i couldn't hurt her without her pressing charges. you don't have to take me back but please believe me. i love you. and only you. it'll always be only you." he finished his story.

she believed him. of course she did. but she shoved passed him and walked out. her classes were over and she was free to go home. and when she got home, she texted karl jacobs and asked him for advice. and what she got in response, was a screenshot of three plane tickets and a message saying "me, dream, and will are on the way. be ready :)."

of course they were. these passed two days have been a rollercoaster, and these three boys were going to make it worse. leilani hiraeth laid down and took what was probably her last nap until the boys left.