We all experience grief and some handle it better than others...
Then there's those select few who grieve in silence...
Those who are forced to keep everything bottled up causing them to lose sight of themselves...
They go around making everyone els...
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I can't believe I relapsed and this time almost killed myself, I am not happy, in fact no one is. I need to find a better outlet, I'm back in therapy and mom said that when I get out of here I'll have that outlet at home.
She and Brady have installed a boxing bag into the gym that I can use whenever I get stressed but I'm currently still in the hospital, I woke up a few hours after collapsing thanks to Ms. Trisha--Ryan's mom—and he's been coming every day when he doesn't have gang stuff to worry about.
Alexa and Justin haven't left my side since I woke up, Alexa only leaves to go home and clean up but Justin hasn't left at all. He doesn't sleep or eat but I force him to go take a shower.
My mom comes as often as she can but today, she's bringing Princess Cassie to see me since I might be getting out of here. The food sucks but Alexa and Tiffany sneak me in McDonalds or Popeyes.
Gotta love them
It's hard to look Justin in the eye knowing that just a week ago I told him that I wasn't cutting anymore, that I was okay.
I don't know what happened.
He blames himself and says he never should've confused me by kissing me but what he doesn't realize is that I need him, he's the best thing to come into my life. After my dad died, I never thought I'd fall in love with anyone or care for anything other than sex but I found him and I'm truly falling for him.
I need to get him a thank you gift for being by my side these past couple of days and just for listening when no one else would or when I was too scared to talk.
"Justin" I whisper
"Yeah? You need anything? You in pain?" He asks frantically.
I chuckle "I'm okay, I just want you to come lay with me"
"Oh okay" He sighs
He kicked off his shoes as I scoot over and lays down next to me, I lay my head on his shoulder and bury my face into the crook of his neck.
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