Temporary High

Chapter 11: Finally Here

As I feel all my emotions leave my mind I decide to start packing in a haze. I grab all my shirts from my closet hangers, all my pants from my dresser, and line all my shoes up, and all my other essentials from my room and bathroom. I pull 4 suitcases from the back of my closet and start loading all my stuff into them. Before I realize the larger part of my room was fit into 4 suitcases. I line them all up close to my door then go back to my bed and sit in the middle of it looking around at the room I have had for the larger part of my life. I think about everything that has had to happen to me for me to get to this moment. How am I worthy of all the good that happened after the bad? Why can't I be happy? Why can't I appreciate it more. Why? Why? Why? I have no answers.

It seems like hours of me in my head and looking at my room. When I finally pull my phone out of my pocket to see it's 4:58 am.

I couldn't stand sitting and staring into space so I decide to hit up some old party friends. I need something to help with these feelings. So once again I head out to their house and as I pull up I get feeling I always do when I've gone to parties, the freeing feeling. But now I also get other feeling telling me this not a good way to solve my problems. I push that voice away when I see some random but familiar face vaping. So walk up to her.

"Hey"

The random chick says "Sup. uh Rõse, right?"

I fake laugh "haha sure. Hey, would you mind if I took a drag, right?"

She gave me a devil's look "only in exchange for something"

I sigh in my head "What do you want in exchange?"

"My boyfriend just broke up with me and I just want to make out or fuck someone. You seem okay and your right here so...?"

Yes other lovely thing people want from me. Use me like soap till there's none left to use but I'm desperate and we both are getting something out of it and its not like she's isn't pretty so it wouldn't be to bad.

"Alright, I'm down. Now hand it over" I wink at her

She hands it to me and I take a long inhale till I can't anymore and hold it in then let it out of my nose only to take other then other till I felt little lighter on the feet. I then hand it over to the girl and look her in the eyes.

"A deals a deal" then snake one hand on the side of her face the other around her waist. She grabs my face and crashes her lips onto mine. I give a little cry out but she wasn't letting up. I let myself get lost in the kiss. I let my hand explore her body till I rested my hand on her lower back and my other hand knotted in her hair. As she tries to push her tongue into mine I let her as our tongues found a rhythm. Her hands dive onto my ass and squeezes them feeling myself get lifted a little. I decide to follow her lead and do the same to her. She moans little in my mouth and hear it vibrate though my brain. She was really into this. I try to pull away only for her to close the gap immediately. She then quickly takes her hands off my ass only to put them on the back of my head to keep me in positions. I finally push her away and take a giant breath. I alright feel my lips swelling.

She is across from me panting but smiles with a twinkling in her eyes. "That was amazing! Your amazing! Why did you pull away?!"

"Uh I'm sorry it's just it would have gone farther then that and kissing is fine and shit but I really would rather not be a rebound. Thank you for everything hope to see you around, alright?"

She smirks "Oh most definitely, I want other taste of those lips."

I run back to my car and speed away.

What the shit was that? Haha I also never got her name. Whatever. At least my mind feels little lighter.

I head back home and I'm back in my room at 5:47 am. I exhale loudly and throw myself onto my bed and stare at the ceiling. I hear my parents bedroom door open and hear my mom heading to the coffee maker.

I decide to go say hi and have some coffee with her rather then stare at my ceiling.

I walk into the kitchen and see my mom bundled up in her bath robe. She turns and greets me with a smile.

"Morning sweety, didn't sleep well?"

I laugh "how did you know?"

I see a sad look fill her eyes "the bags under your eyes and the hopelessly within them. I really wish we could find a solid solution".

I walk up to her and hug her

I hear my voice crack " you do to much for me alright. It's alright. It's survivable but I really want to thank you for all you do for me. Really you and dad are amazing."

She squeezes me and I feel a tear fall on my shoulder

"I just wish I could do more, you know?"

I stuff my face in the crock of her neck

"I'm serious you already do enough, I really appreciate everything you've done for me."

Then the coffee maker makes it's presence now and we disconnect.

I hop on the counter and watch my mom make her coffee and then start up a conversation about something random I saw on social media and then my mom makes me a coffee and one for my dad. We stand in the kitchen chatting then my dad walks in and grabs his coffee and join the conversation.

We finish our coffee and they decided to go get dressed and I'm told the collect all my baggage and put it at the front door. So I do that then sit on the couch and pull out my phone and wait till my parents are ready.

Their finally ready around 7:45 and they load up their car and I jump in my car to follow them to the school.

We pull into the parking load and park. I get out and go to my parent's car to help them grab my stuff.

We walk to the front of the school to me greeted by a school administer.

"Hello, name?"

"Rose "

"Alright, your new. Well welcome, Rose. Your room 211. Here's your key. Here's a map."

I look at it and start towards that part of campus"

We find room 211 and I open it to find it's very large and very bare.

I turn to my parents "Don't all students have roommates?"

They smile and my mom says " not all, sweety"

I narrow my eyes "aaaalright then well it's nice."

I then go look at the bathroom and see a other door connecting the bathrooms. Alright then i guess I will be sharing something with someone, fun.

Then I come back to the main room and see my parents lining all my suitcases against the wall.

They turn and my dad says " well I guess this is it"

"Yeah, sweety. We have to head to work but-" my mom adds with tears swelling in her eyes " we call you in a few hours to see how your holding up"

I smile sadly "Alright I think I'll be fine but yes we'll talk later"

Then I open my arms as to go in for a hug when they both walk towards me and hold me tight for a few minutes then let go and look at me.

Then they walk towards then door and open it then look back and say "We love you" then walk out. Leaving me to look around my new room and let it all sink in.

I first decide to put sheets on my bed and pillows and blankets. Then I throw myself onto the bed and lay there for a second to lazy to unpack everything else when I feel myself drift away.

Dang I haven't written in awhile well here it is...to who've reads this. Byeeee xxx