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🎄MERRY CHRISTMAS 🎄
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"Hey, Ash? You okay?"
"Uh? Y-yeah, I'm good,"
"You don't look like it," Harry chirped in and Lauren nodded along.
"Is it Calum?"
"No, it's not him, we're fine,"
"It's Luke then?" Lauren asked again.
"No, it's nothing. It's just my off-day."
"Off day my ass. You've been like this since three days ago."
"Lauren, can you please just drop it? It's nothing,"
"Clearly something was bothering you and I don't like my brother all sad and down like this," Harry said.
"Guys, leave the poor boy alone, will you?" They sighed but finally dropped it. Thanks, Mum.
"May I be excused?"
"Yeah, sure." Thanks again, Mum.
I ran up the stairs and straight to my room before throwing myself onto the bed. My eyes instantly landed on my wall, a bunch of pictures covering it. But caught my attention the most was, Luke and I's pictures. From the very first pictures when it was really early in our relationship until the last couple one that the kind woman took.
I wiped away the tear that accidentally fell, sighing heavily at how stupid my decision was.
I love Calum first and I know I still do, but why breaking things with Luke feel so much harder than I thought? Why does it hurt so much?
Luke started avoiding me since the incident at the school's backside. He didn't make it obvious as I did, but I notice that he actually did. I could also notice the concerned look Michael keeps giving me every time we saw each other. He even asked about it on Thursday (which is two days ago) but I dropped it and just ran away. Like I always did.
The tension during lunch was so fucking thick that it always ended up with Luke or me leaving. Calum probably notices it too, but he said nothing.
I heard someone knocking on my door but I said nothing as the door pushed open carefully.
"A-Ash? Can I come in?" I said nothing again knowing Lauren will still come in even if I say no.
"'m sorry if I was so pushy downstairs,"
"It's fine," I said, trying to brush it off. Again.
"Y-you wanna talk about it?"
"..."
"It's Luke, isn't it?"
"..."
"Did he hurt you?"
"No,"
"Then?"
"I did,"
"... D'ya mind to elaborate?"
"I hurt him."
"H- How?"
"I broke up with him and it broke him as well," Lauren awed sadly before pulling me into her side. I gladly cuddled into her, hiding my face in her shoulder.
"Why did you break up with him?"
"I was stupid."
"No, you're not. You must have your reason, Ash"
"You do know that our relationship was actually base from a dare, right?"
"Yeah, and?"
"We actually fall for each other and made it official two weeks into the dare. But then as the times goes by, the dare come to an end."
"Okay... and?"
"We were supposed to go back to our previous boyfriends which mean it was Cashton and Muke all over again. Calum and Mike acted like they were before this dare which means treating Luke and me as their boyfriend and only act like a... friend or some sort towards each other. But Luke and I... we can't. We got back together again right after school's done. And we went on a date. But then... the guilt grew bigger and bigger and I just can't do it anymore. I was so torn and stuck so I go to mum for advice. She flipped shit because what I did was basically cheating and we all know that no one in this house concurs that. But I still did it anyway. She grounded me for a week because of that but whatever, that's not the point. I finally gather enough guts to talk to Luke about it and I just... break it off. And now I break him and he avoids me and tensions are everywhere and everyone grows concerned and keeps asking me questions and I'm just so fucking done with my dumb self."
"Oh, Ash..."
"I know. I'm so fucking stupid but I still love Calum, okay? I know I love Luke as well but I can't abandon my first for someone that I just know,"
"You love Luke?"
"I do love him for him and not just because of the dare. And Calum... I love him too."
"You could make this right, you know?"
"How? He hates me, he avoids me at all cost and when we're near each other, it was just so tense and awkward and ugh..."
"Do you actually love Calum?"
"Of course, I do, what are you on about?"
"Because to me, it seems like you love Luke way more than you ever love Calum if you said you do at least,"
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My apologies guys because
it seems like the xmas project
I told you about will be
cancelled.
I got a new story in the oven
and I want to focus in this
story and that new baby only.
So, I'm so sorry
I hope you understand
I love you all xx
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Fanfiction- Stay a bit after class. I got a brilliant plan - -You'll like it, I promise. Coz knowing you, you'd probs think that it's inappropriate. But FYI, this one is appropriate enough to be rated PG, I swear - "Whatevs, but what's the plan anyway?" "You...
