Her Past, His Innocence

16. Maybe

Joel's POV

Anyways...

I'm still driving to God-knows-where and at the same time, sneaking glances at Amanda. She looking outside and kinda sleepy.

I use this time to check her out. Her black, curly and silky hair flows down from her head to her back. Her long eye lashes stay over her eyes which have her very dark brown eyes. Her eyes are so dark, one would think they were black. Her smooth, dark skin glows under the light of the sun. Her full lips stretch out to a smile.

She's smiling unconsciously. I can tell she has a very curvy and beautiful body under the hoodies and sweatpants she wears most of the time. I've seen her in a dress once and her legs looked like they went on forever.

I look back to her eyes. They hold a lot of stories, mistakes and experiences I'm curious about. All of a sudden, I want to know everything about her.

She comes out as innocent but she's been through and knows many things I don't. She's very hard to figure out unless she opens up to you. I feel attracted to her.

I'm still lost in my thoughts and I had a goofy smile on my face. When...

"A penny for your thoughts?" I turn to look at Amanda.

"I'm thinking about this girl." I told her.

"Hmm. A girl. Wow, I never knew the 'almighty Joel' was into girls." She acted suprised.

"I'm really into girls;if you know what I mean."

"So... you're a player?" She asked.

"No. I'm not. What makes you think that?"

"Honestly, the first time I saw you, in the cafeteria, I saw you as the 'playboy' type. With the bad boy personality and all that." She confessed with ease.

"Well, just so you know, I'm not a badboy and I definitely don't play girls. Playing girls is really disgusting to me."

"How many girls have you dated?" She questioned.

"Why'd you ask?" I smirked.

"Just curious I guess. Also, stop smirking. It makes me want to slap you."

"Ouch, you hurt me. Well... I've only dated one girl; Sabrina. Lasted for a few months. Never really liked her though but she had feelings for me. Our father's set us up." I narrated.

Sabrina's father and my father are very good friends. Very similar too. Having affairs outside their marriages, rich and snobby attitude and all. My siblings and I never liked that lifestyle. We hate it.

"Now, back to the real topic here. So this girl, do I know her?" She's really curious about this girl.

"Yup." I can see she's listening attentively.

"How is she like?"

"Okay. Um.. she's very smart, quite tall for a girl, she's can be very bossy sometimes but I find that really attractive. Seeing her with kids makes me smile like a lunatic and she's beautiful." I probably sound like a love struck puppy. I didn't know what I was saying,it just came to me as I was listing the things I like about her.

I can't seem to shake off this feeling I have whenever I'm with Amanda. She makes me happy and not lonely.

I can't comprehend what's happening.

I'm confused right now.

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After the aimless drive with Amanda, I dropped her off at her house. It was getting dark so I headed back home.

Luckily, my dad isn't around but my mom, Jasmine and they boys are home. I didn't know I was smiling unconsciously which made me look crazy.

They gave me a look. They surely think I'm out of my mind right now.

"Why are you smiling like a mad man?" Jasmine started.

"Nothing." I dismissed. I know the reason I'm smiling but I won't tell.

"It's something. Amanda was here today." Joseph snitched. It's high time I throw this child into the pool and drown him.

"Ooo.... Girl drama. Tell us about it." Mum clapped and made herself comfortable on one of the barstools.

"It's nothing really. We just hung out. Nothing more."

They all rolled their eyes in disbelief.

"Joel, you tell me what went on this afternoon or I'll gag you in your sleep." Jasmine threatened. I'm really scared now. Once, she tried me to my bed and held a knife to my throat so I could set her up with one of my friends. That's a path I don't want to go down again.

"Okay whatever. I'll tell you.." Mom and Jasmine chose this time to squeal like teenage girls. "...but, promise not to make a big deal out of it." I pleaded. I know I won't hear the end of this

"Yeah yeah whatever. Now, tell." Jacob promised.

"I've been thinking for a while now. IthinkIlikeherbutI'mnotsure." I rushed out. They just looked at me.

"Dude, chill. Repeat but slowly." Jasmine talked to me like I'm four years old.

I let out a large breath. "I think I like her but I'm not sure." I closed my eyes when I said that. I peaked with one eye, checking out for their reactions.

Jasmine and Mom squealed, I thought my eardrums exploded.

"You owe me two dollars." Jacob turned to Joseph who brought out two dollars from his pocket.

"You guys bet on it?" I'm surprised really.

"Yup. Jacob said you will confess your feelings for Amanda in less than two months. I said you would confess your feelings in more than to months so I've lost two dollars." Joseph explained.

My family is crazy.

"Jace must hear about this." Jasmine called Jace and told him the news. He wasn't suprised really. He saw it coming.

Everyone was smiling, even Joseph who lost two dollars to Jacob. I found myself smiling too.

"Wait, so when are you gonna tell her?" Mom asked and the smile faded from my face.

"Problem is... I don't know if she likes me. She doesn't show signs or anything like that."

"I see. Just give her time. Maybe, she likes you. You never know actually."

Hopefully.

I walked to my room and had a shower. I laid down on my bed.

Never in my life did I ever think I'll like someone. I didn't even notice.

Maybe she likes me back.

Maybe.

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Hey you and you...
Also you too.

I decide to do this chapter in Joel's POV. In most books, it's always the girl that realizes the feelings and all. Soo... I decide to change that. Now Joel has realized the feelings he has for Amanda.

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~ Dr. Joyce Brothers.

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~Judea😘💎