Disorderedeating Stories

my severe depression and I collaborated on some new pieces everybodys gonna hate. slight trigger warning for depression (shocking I know) and disordered eating.

a person with an unspecified eating disorder falls in love with somebody despite their struggles. heavily based on my own experience and mostly written for me to feel as though I am lovable. potentially triggering read tags. ALSO this is a story about schoolchildren so if that makes you uncomfortable do not read. there will be no smut or anything but perhaps a kiss.

Dazai has trouble regulating his habits.

Cross-posted to AO3. My first BSD fanfic.

Victoria can't remember a time when she didn't think of food as numbers and something that was against her. She has calculations of eating and burning calories and fat running through her head all day and night, but she isn't really sick right? in her head she's strict, she's disciplined and she's just looking out of her health but in reality maybe ana has taken over her so completely it sounds like the voice of a friend rather than an illness trying to kill her. Author note: my Gilmore girls story will be continued along with this one and I think getting my feelings and thoughts out through Victoria will inspire me to start writing again because my god ive missed it. also WARNINGGG the main theme of this story centres around eat!ing dis0rders so if this is a struggle for you or you are trying to recover maybe don't read this one :)

A group of angry, queer teens attempt to escape the 'City', a horrible place that they all grew up in. But it's proving to be a lot harder than they expected. /Me? Projecting into my stories?? It's more likely than you think/

This story is a collection of scenes (mostly from Buggy's and Shanks' childhood and young teenage years), full of hurt Shanks, who's haunted by nightmares after being sexually abused, and Buggy dealing with his redhead's nightly terrors and odd behaviors throughout the day (not to mention his own insecurities). Or: Shanks develops a lot of very unhealthy coping mechanisms, and it takes Buggy years to understand what has happened to his friend. Some Shanks x Buggy in later chapters. Feel free to read along or leave right away. Cover art by Yazu-Jud on zerochan.net

What if your own mind was your biggest battleground? For Amari, quiet is something she just can't have. Her brain is a lively, messy storm, with a thousand thoughts going at once, each one screaming for her focus. She puts her feelings on canvas, but the art inside her head is a beautiful, scary mess no one truly sees. She's the girl who feels like she's drowning right in front of everyone, hiding her inner chaos with a practiced, calm facade. Then there's Elias. A quiet strong wall. A silent puzzle everyone thinks they have figured out. But behind his calm outside, a heavy problem threatens to break him, pushing him to the very edge of what he can take. He carries the weight of the world, all alone, in the secret parts of his life, silently fighting a war no one knows about. Two souls, completely lost in their own unseen fights, are drawn together by a strong, unspoken feeling. When the girl who lives in loud chaos meets the boy who lives in deep quiet, an amazing link starts to form. Can they find the good in each other's hidden hurts, or will their combined secrets pull them deeper into the darkness?

your favourite colour is gold. her favourite colour was blue. together, you made a colour as green as the leaves on a sycamore tree. current status: finished, probably will stay finished unless people have like, questions or something.

A poem about learning to love your body again.

flynn didn't eat.

Just thoughts

I'm not sure what this is going to be yet but it's going to be sad.

a poem about living with an eating disorder & the relationship with food after recovery

For Dylan, it's just a regular shift at a theme park restaurant until a beautiful mess walks through the door.

It's the voice that whispers just before meal times to put less on your plate, it's the feeling of regret after you finished a piece of junk food you just ate, its the brain wrenching thoughts of being alarmingly hungry but you cannot bring yourself to eat. For Parker Collian his was all he knew. The life of control beyond imaginable, hiding it from all the people you care for in your life, pushing people away, because the disorder is more important. This is the story of a young boy who was pushed into dastardly behaviour. All because of a life in the modern mindset of control, that was now considered common and the people he met along the way, who changed his life for worse, or maybe for the better.

He craves it.

It wasn't healthy but it was normal. It was your normal. At least your new normal.

trigger warnings: disordered eating, body image issues, abusive. toxic speech. i'm super open to brutal criticism. i just randomly wrote this while high, so tell me what you think. this is a work of fiction that i based on some of my insecurities. my mother is not this horrible, but she does impose her insecurities onto me. this is the first time i've tried fiction in a while and the first time i've made anything for the public eye. so take that into consideration, but be brutal.