Letters through the dark night

"Books and words are all I have left..."
This world is filled with horror, fear, anger, hatred, wonder, awe, happiness, appreciation...
Outside, the faces we put up, the paint we lay, thick and bright - all those cover those mud filled hole that we all hide.
Sometimes, we all need a break. But how can you show it if you're afraid? If you don't want to hurt others? If you just don't want to make the world worst?
This is just a story - letters - from one to herself during the darkest times, trying to bring out a glimmer of hope. During high school and the expectations of reality and the way the world works now.