In my first life, we suffered..... In our second life, we suffered again.... In our third life we suffered the same....... Now this is the fourth time, I'll be damn if I let it repeat again, oh my child, I will not let you suffer again... Vivian Madeleine Rushell lived three lives and in those three lifetimes, she and her son suffered because of the man she loved in those three lifetimes, she decides she will not let her son suffered anymore so to do this she will not marry her husband and not having his child so her child will not exist so he will not feel the pain of living in an unfortunate family.