This is a huskerdust story!! Life in hell for a certain gay traumatized spider is somehow even worse than being alive. Between Val, being a porn star, dealing with his addictions, homophobia, and being forced by Charlie to work on himself, life is pretty shit. But of course there are reasons to keep going. There's fat nuggets his beloved pig, his best friend Cherri Bomb, and well, the fact that you can't die in hell. When an unexpected factor comes into play, and the death of Vox, Angel has to make the hardest choice of his life. Trigger warnings: sexual abuse, SA, SH, suicidal topics, homophobia, cursing, substances, abuse (just as a whole), PTSD, death and grief Read at your own risk.