{This fanfic happens in an alternative universe where some characters from the anime bsd are idols} Love? Hate? Obsession? Need?...What does Dazai actually feel for Chuuya? He doesn't want to touch him, less kiss him. but why does he feel so annoyed when someone is slightly close to him? This fanfic includes: - Shinsoukoku - The personalities are changed slightly - Mention of suicide, SH, and different types of psychological and physical abuse This fanfic is written based on the videos of the "Idol AU" of my channel (@mei-rin.)