Pondering Stories

My latest anthology, poems circa 2022-2026

Poems about autism spectrum disorder, what it's like to live with it, and the culture surrounding it. Written from my experience.

"What should i choose for my major" in College being the question. I wrote these three poems in three different sittings over the course of 2 years. As it evolved with me and my growth from the summer before college to the spring of Sophomore year. I went into college with an open mind-possibly too open minded-concerning what i wanted to pursue as a major, now of course I had my original interests, but i didn't want to write off anything that i hadn't tried yet. And in these three pieces i go through a list of the many different majors in poetic rhyme, that I could potentially decide to major in-giving the pros and cons. And in the last piece i ultimately decide what i want to major in. Also, if you can name all of the TV shows that i mention in the second part, I'll write a poem about you! First come, first serve! No Cheating!

єνєя нα∂ ѕσмєтнιиg уσυ ωαитє∂ тσ ѕαу, ¢σмє ¢ℓєαи αвσυт, σя ʝυѕт ѕнσυт тσ тнє ωσяℓ∂ вυт ¢αит? тнιиgѕ αвσυт ρєσρℓє ωнσ αяє ∂єαя тσ уσυя нєαят, ριѕѕ уσυ σff, нυят уσυ, σя мαкє уσυ ¢яу? ραѕѕισиαтє тнιиgѕ ωнι¢н мαкє уσυя нєαят fєєℓ ℓιкє ιтѕ вєαтιиg ʝυѕт α ℓιттℓє fαѕтєя? вυт αℓѕσ тнιиgѕ ωнι¢н мαкє ιт ʝυмρ fσя ʝσу? ωєℓ¢σмє тσ му нєαят. тнιѕ вσσк ιѕ тнє кєу тσ иσт σиℓу му мιи∂, вυт му нєαят αи∂ ѕσυℓ αℓѕσ... тнιиgѕ ωнι¢н нυят мє вυт αℓѕσ нєℓρє∂ мє fσям тнє ρєяѕσи ωнσ ι αм тσ∂αу. ι нσρє тнιѕ ιиѕριяєѕ уσυ тσ ¢σмє συт ωιтн уσυя σωи υиѕρσкєи ωσя∂ѕ... ¢σρу ραѕтє∂ fяσм му иσтєѕ ωнσ ι нανєит ѕнσωє∂ иσт єνєи му ¢ℓσѕєѕт fяιєи∂ѕ... уєт ι ѕнσω тσ ѕтяαиgєяѕ σи тнє ιитєяиєт

Thoughts, feelings

Another reflection freeform poem

Random thoughts I feel I want to share. I honestly suggest you don't read this... my mind is a horrible place ;; there's going to be cws and tws in the book but it'll most likely include -some controversial opinions of mine -venting Cover art by me!

You know how sometimes you want to make a difference so bad, you end up making everything worse? Overachieving, overhauling the world. Your fate is in your own hands, hard doesn't mean impossible, the encouraging chatter we've all heard. It's bullshit. Either you know it, or you're about to. Don't get me wrong, nihilism is as far from what I'm trying to introduce here as it could. The painful realism, the omnipresent "it's all for nothing"... there's more to it. And if you're not a coward, you will stay with me to explore it like the goddamn outer space. Besos. [as you can see, this work involves some cussing and heavy topics, so if that's not your thing I do understand and hope you find what you're looking for elsewhere.]

I will do my best to document the small place in my mind that knows that every thing in life can be outstandingly perfect.

Sixteen-year old Dante Evadoni is a normal boy with a normal life - he's in eleventh grade, he has a fair few friends, he's not popular and he's quiet - and a problem that has followed him for two years: he's heels over head in love with a girl he can't seem to get over. Seventeen-year old Carolynn Quirox is in the same grade level as Dante, in the same circle of friends, although a bit apart from him. For two years, she has been avoiding Dante in an attempt to make him forget about her. She has never felt anything for Dante, believing that he isn't the one. Then, after some practices and one dance during a party, everything turns upside down. Just as Dante feels that his life has finally begun to go uphill, he is plagued by a memory that compels him to consider the way things are and how things should be. What happens when the past he needs to forget becomes the only way he can be happy? After that one party, Dante seems to be a different person in the eyes of Carolynn. She is confused at first, but the longer she tries to come to grips with her views of Dante, the more she realizes what she has been overlooking. How could someone she has known and avoided for two years seem to change in one evening? The two are forced apart, brought together, and both can't help wondering if they truly are meant to be without one another. Laden with dances, music, laughter, and heartbreak, 'Relapse' is the story of what happens when the first of feelings refuse to die out.

Nit picked out of my tons of Poetry filled notebooks for their philosophical ponderings, HOWEVER, the first one in this collection is from one i wrote on the day of this publication! The poems in this collection center around philosophical ponderings such as: Fakeness, The Past in comparison to The Present, Isolation, Choices you make in life, How you are living your life, Happiness, and being in a state of perpetual paralysis. I hope you enjoy! :) (I MAY or may not just add more philosophical poems to this collection instead of posting more philosophical collations. ALSO, if you are still reading this here, I want to pose to you a question that I'd like you to answer on the last poem-<or whichever poem you want-doesn't matter, but it would be cool to keep them all in one place> The question is: Would you read a collection of poems titled: "Poems with fatalistic mentionings/The End of The World/Day of Reckoning is near"-and if you want to go further, give a why. I'm curious to know, as I've got a couple that mention and go into that sort of thing.)

Just the questions I think about when I am bored.

a collection of thoughts and feelings in a poem-like form. involves mostly love and darkness. /updating randomly/ cover art is by Angela He

I wrote this in 2012 when I was 13. I'd keep in mind that I was probably having an existential crisis and/or particularly pissed of that day. (Even now I couldn't tell you for sure)

Random stuff from when I feel inspired. Inure is heavily inspired by Syre by Jaden.

This book as the name suggests is about how I connect my day to day life with God. Jesus Christ. Holy Spirit. From the simple foods that we eat and the simple things we use in our day to day life across different places like home, school, etc. You get the drift aye? Continue forth in staying Blessed my dear folks! Proverbs 7:4 Say to wisdom , "You are my sister , " And call understanding your nearest kin,