To Keep You Off My Mind

Chapter 4

Lily's POV

A week later

It's been a week since I've seen Locke. He won't even come to my house to hang out with Lincoln. Ever since I told him I loved him, he's completely forgotten who I am. I've tried so hard to forget about him, but no matter how much I try, he's always there in the back of my mind.

I got out of bed and went to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror and began pointing out my flaws. "Oh no, I get it Locke. The reason you don't like me is because my teeth are crooked. Oh, and because my nose is too big. And my face is just ugly in general!" I said quietly to myself. I started to tear up, but wiped the tears from my face. I washed my face and went back to my room to pick out my outfit for the day. I got dressed and fixed my hair. I decided since I can't be with Locke, I need to find someone else, so I put some make-up on to look like I hadn't just woken up from eternal slumber. I walk upstairs and grab some breakfast before getting in the car and driving Lincoln and myself to school.

The day went by slowly until 6th period, Algebra, the only class Locke and I share. I walked into the classroom and sat on the left side at the front of the room. Locke was already sitting on the opposite side, avoiding eye contact with me. I set my back pack down and pulled out my math notebook. I looked up and saw Chris, the most perverted boy in the school, leaning on the front of my desk with his hands firmly gripping the sides. He raised his eyebrow and smirked at me. I looked back at his dark brown eyes with the most annoyed look on my face. "Can I help you with something, Chris?"

"Pizza. You and me." He winked at me and gave me a creepy smile.

"Shove off Chris." I looked down.

"I wasn't asking. I'll be picking up at 7." He stood up.

"No you won't. I'm not going with you." I looked straight into his eyes. He raised his eyebrow. He leaned closer to me.

"Honey, you don't wanna say no to me. Bad things happen to people who say no to me." I started to get nervous. The whole class went silent. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Locke turn his head and look at us with concern in his eyes. I thought for a moment. What if he's jealous? What if he really did like me, but he didn't know it until now? I had to make him more jealous. I looked up at Chris with a slight smile on my face.

"Fine. But pick me up at 6."

"Great!" He walked back to desk and class began. I couldn't help but smile for the rest of the hour. The thought of Locke being jealous and fighting over me made me giddy.

The bell rang, I collected my things and stood up. I walked outside and Locke bumped into me causing me to drop my back pack and books. We both reached down and picked them up. "Hey." He said cautiously.

"Hi." I looked down nervously.

"So, you and Chris, huh." We stood up. I smiled, trying to see if he really was jealous. "You should be careful with him. I've heard some things and I don't want them to happen to you." Nothing. I had to get something out of him, some small hint of jealousy. I had to act like I didn't care what he thought about me.

"Why do you care? You haven't spoken to me in a week. You obviously don't care." I looked away trying to act mad.

"Lily, you know that I-" I cut him off.

"No, you know what, screw you. You call yourself a good person, but you're a jerk! You think everyone's obsessed with you, well newsflash, they aren't!" I said getting more and more angry, that had to do something.

"Lily." I turned around and stormed off. I couldn't hold my smile back anymore. "Fine, do what you want." He yelled back. The smile left my face and I knew he wasn't jealous. I started to believe what I said as I walked away. Why am I trying to make him jealous, he obviously doesn't like me, I thought. He really is a jerk who thinks everyone is obsessed with him. I don't need him.

All I could think about for the rest of the day was how much I didn't need Locke. As I lied down for bed, I replayed the whole thing in my head. The look when Chris asked me out, the way he told me to be careful, and the way he cared for me. Then a thought popped into my head, and I knew it wasn't going away. 

Maybe I do need him?