Stay- JJ Watt Fanfic

Chapter 8

~Lucy’s POV~
“You…you love me?” I asked, just to make sure I heard right.
“I’m pretty sure it wasn’t a secret Lulu.” He smiled.
“I just didn’t think you’d still feel the same way about me as I did you.” I said.
“Why do you think I tried to find you? Or wanted you to come here?” He asked.
I thought about it for a minute and then it dawned on me. He loved me even after all this time and he wanted us to be together.
“I feel like a dummy.” I admitted.
“You’re not a dummy. It just took you a bit to realize why I wanted you so bad. It’s because I’m still crazy in love with you and no other girl will do for me. Only you.”
“You were hoping I’d move down here weren’t you? So that we could start over?” I asked.
“Yea. But I figured after that kiss, I already sealed the deal.” He joked.
“That definitely helped but I don’t know if I’m ready to make a commitment to moving here.”
“We can start off as dating; we don’t have to get married again right away. Though I’d like to someday, when the time is right for both of us. I know I can’t ask you to just quit your job you love and move down here and live with me either. It’s going to take some work from the both of us to figure out our relationship but I’m willing to make it work if you are.” He said.
“Let’s see how we do just living together now. Then a week before I have to leave we’ll sit down and see where we’re at. But I’m willing to make it work between us too.” I said.
“Well there’s only one other thing to do.” He said as he stood up.
I eyed him curiously.
“Let’s go to Steak n’ Shake.” He grinned.
I didn’t hesitate to sit close to JJ while we ate. I kept one hand on his thigh and he did the same with me.
“You’re a lot bigger than you were 7 years ago?” I said, looking at his massive arms.
“Yea, I put on a lot more muscle.”
I couldn’t take my eyes off him.
“You’re so hot.” I said.
I meant to say that to myself. I could feel my face turning red as he looked at me grinning.
“Thanks.” He said, blushing a little.
“I did not mean to say that out loud.”
“Its ok, I think you’re beautiful.”
That made me blush more.
“So what’s there to do in Houston?” I asked, attemptin to change the subject.
“You still like horses?” He asked and I nodded.
“You’ll be going to a lot of my games, horseback riding. Pretty much anything you see that you want to do, we’ll do it.” He said.
And the conversation continued with us making plans of sights and activities for me to do while I was in town. There didn’t seem like there would be a whole lot to in between JJ’s games but I was curious to see what he would come up with.
By the time we left the resturaunt we were both tired again and decided to go back to bed when we got home.  We both held each other as well fell asleep, both sleeping dreamlessly that night.
~2 Months Later~
Before I knew it the two months was here and almost gone. JJ kept us pretty busy which made time fly by even faster. Today was the day we were supposed to talk about whether or not I’d be moving here.
“So you have a week until you leave, we need to talk.” JJ said sitting at opposite ends of me on the couch.
“I was just thinking about that and to be honest I don’t know what I want to do.” I admitted.
He didn’t hide his disappointment.
“I’m sorry J; I know that’s not what you wanted to hear.” I said reaching for him but he pulled away.
He got up and left the room. I knew what he wanted but I wasn’t ready to give that up for him. I didn’t want to give up my career and I couldn’t ask him to give up his. I knew I should probably leave him alone but it was something that needed to be talked about now.
I found him lying on the bed staring up at the ceiling. I sat beside him and stared at him while he avoided my gaze all together.
“We got to talk J.”
He remained silent.
“I do love you. I do want to be with you. I don’t think I’m ready to give up my career and move away. These past two months have been incredible and I’d love nothing more than for it to keep going but I just cant give up my dream. I’d never ask you to give up yours. You mean so much to me JJ and we promised we’d make it work no matter what.” I said.
Silence.
“JJ please say something.”
“Do you know how long I waited to find you again? Do you know how hard it was to even find you? And now you don’t want to be with me.”
“I never said that Justin.”
He glared at me, he hated when I used his real name.
“Then what’s so hard about putting in a two weeks notice at work and packing your stuff up and moving here?”
“JJ, you promised you wouldn’t put me in this situation... What’s so hard about is that  I worked my butt off getting where I’m at in my dad’s company. I could’ve already been President of it but I started from the bottom and worked my way up. I don’t want to throw away everything I’ve worked so hard to get.”
“You wouldn’t even throw it away for me.” He said.
“What if I asked you to give up your NFL career?” I asked and it struck a nerve.
“I wouldn’t do it.”
“Why are you being so difficult? You said we’d make it work no matter what and now that you’re not getting your way, you’re acting like a big ass baby Justin. Grow up, not everything is about you.” I said jumping off the bed and leaving the room.
I went into the bathroom so he wouldn’t see me cry. A few moments later I heard the front door slam. I’ve never talked to anyone like that and I wasn’t sure what came over me but I felt like he deserved it. I never said I didn’t want to be with him, just that I wasn’t ready to pack up my life and move to Houston right away like he wanted but he took it a complete different way.  I decided to just leave now, no point and staying with someone who made you feel unwelcome.
After I was finished packing I called a taxi, while I was waiting I left JJ a note.
JJ,
I decided it was best I leave. I wish you nothing but the best and I hope you find the kind of love you want and deserve. I’m really glad you found me and we got to see each other again.
Much Love Always,
Lucy
I heard the taxi honk and I set the note on the pillow where he couldn’t miss it. I loved him so much but there were things both of us weren’t willing to give up to be together. And until we both were, it was best we weren’t together.
As I sat in the airport and waited on my plane to board, I thought about him. I wondered if he  was home and if he got the letter. Would he come after me? Was he really going to let me go?
One of flight attendants called my boarding number, I grabbed my carryon and purse and stood in line and waited to get on the plane.
Once again, I never got to say goodbye.
JJ’s POV
When I got home I noticed my house was quiet and dark. Too quiet and dark. I was going to apologize for how I acted. Two months went by way too fast for me and I wasn’t ready to give her up yet. But my stupid pride made me an ass and I hurt her.
“Lucy?” I called out and didn’t get a response.
I checked each room, saving the bedroom for last. I figured she was avoiding me. I would too if I were her.
“Lucy?” I called out once more peeking in.
She wasn’t there either. I noticed a folded up piece of paper laying on my pillow, I unfolded it and read the few words she wrote. I didn’t know what to do, then it hit me: I didn’t want to lose her again and I’d be damned if I did.
By the time I got to the airport, I was too late. I mentally cursed myself.
There was only one thing left to do.