"The Ugliness of a handsome Legend"

Chapter 39

Chapter 39

When we don’t know each other, we chat as stranger and just now we found out that we are really heaven’s will. But now, I just hope she will not regain her memories… I know it is my selfishness… but I hope this situation won’t get worsen. Now that the chat opened up, I cannot help but to explain to her. I waved my hand frantically to her saying that it doesn’t mean anything.

“That time…. We—we—bicker! Right! We bickered and we’re furious to each other and so I recklessly spat things. Can you forgive me?” I ask hoping she quickly redeem my question. Her face is gloomier than before. Her lively eyes become low-spirited and her head is lowered, she played with her fingers sadly.

“We bicker? Why? Did you think that means nothing to me?” she slowly lift her head looking at me pessimistically. I know that eventually she’ll remember everything but please not now.

“It-it’s a—a misunderstanding. We bicker and I been too careless. It didn’t mean anything to me... I promise.” With a furrow brow I said.

“So that means we are forced to be together?” her eyes become glum, and I cannot do anything about it… all is to explain sincerely.

At this point, I haven’t told her that we are truly forced to be married and that’s why I hated her because of thinking that all she wants is me and not about the state of my family. If not for her, we wouldn’t be breathing now, might be in the streets asking for money. If I told her that it is true… what would be her rejoinder?

If I told her another lie, would she forgive me in the future? I promised myself I will not keep her in the dark… but now I wonder….

“No... we love each other genuinely and affectionately.” I said with a confident tone. I told her another lie, AGAIN! I am sure knows how to slap myself silly. Her eyes flushed happiness but later differ from sadness. “Then why would we bicker?” she ask with a lower head.

What could be my excuse this time… if I said it is another woman… argh! I shouldn’t have let her see my name. If I knew this would happen. Foolish of me.

“It is a misunderstanding between us. Don’t think seriously about it.” I comforted her, she seems to be livened and raise her head. She slightly smiled and told me.

“Then the saying about ‘the relationship will not be strong if there are no fights, in that way they will know each other promptly.” She scooted near me and displayed a sweet smile. In return I also smiled. I put behind her my left arm and when she rest her head she found out that I put it intentionally. She instantly blushed and I giggled.

About the part when Doctor Lee said that just cuddle her and everything will be fine is useful this time, definitely do more in the future.

I never knew that the girl I loathed for a long time will be held by my arms and as sweetly and willingly. I never expected that she will be mine and I will be hers. If so, in the future if I ask her if she could live with me for my remaining days then I will be in ecstasy. I know that she will absolutely will not be easy to me, but even so, I am just hoping after those hard times she will enthusiastically accept me as her husband and of course I will regard her as my one and only wife.

This disinclined feelings lead us to deep love, this hesitant sensation of love directed us to be one, and it guided us to be clear to each other. I knew from the start that I will never ever love you, but look at now, I am sincerely loving you.

It is rather like we are lost in our map, lost in our true place where we are going, wandering night and day…. But now we found each other and our feet indicated us in the right place where we should be responsible in our decisions.  I finally found my answer that I been looking for, all you need is trust.

I keep going in circle and never took the risk to face the obstacles, now that I am with you, I adequately hold your hand and face it with a smile. For the first time living, this is my first time holding the dream I wanted to success.

Author’s Note: never in my life I knew I could be this sweet, usually I am like vomiting blood whenever I found sweet things.. but now I learned everyone can be sweet if you just try.