"The Ugliness of a handsome Legend"

Chapter 35

Chapter 35

I sighed as the wind meet my face, this is refreshing that those scenery. I feel nothing, but happy when I am with Sprill. Is something wrong with me? Why do I feel something is lacking??

I pressed the 3rd floor, gladly I am alone on the rooftop. Not long after, many patients is on board. Then I notice, a child holding her parents hand. What cute scenario. Will I and Sprill will have kids too? I wished sprill will discharged sooner, then we will talk about future plans.

I seated in the cafeteria, I am not eating since yesterday, I have to eat at least. I pick a light dish, living with Sprill, I am used to have light meals. “Thank you.” I said bowing.

I am eating quietly when one man seated beside me. Doctor Lee? Why?

“Hello, Doctor Lee. Why?” I ask straightly. What’s with many maze if I will only ask about this in the end?

“How’s with Sprill? Anything better?” his tone is like teasing me, this time he don’t look like a doctor yet a friend who will teased you until you gave up on them. “Ahmm, good?” unsure, I still answered. I never feel really embarrass but why do I feel embarrass??

“She is just like a child. Cuddle her and everything is well.” He counsel me. After, he left. I am there still trying to figure out what did he meant. So what if I cuddle her now, eventually, she will remember the suffocation she feels from us- Resa and I. I don’t have any appetite anymore. At least I eat four and a half spoonful, if that doctor didn’t come I am nevertheless eating as I could.

Irritated I feel my feet automatically step inside Sprill’s room. I intently stare at her peaceful face. I skimmed and my eyes landed on her lips, I closed my eyes before letting myself sleep.

After napping, I am wide awake, I feel something… startled I stare at her. “What are you doing?” I ask looking at her. “Nothing. Taking a picture of you. I can’t?” she pouted. The doctor is right in the part that her way of thinking might affect, now I am experiencing it.

“Tsk. You can ask me, why do took it when I am sleep?” I get the camera in her hands. I posed and capture. “Here.” I set the camera in her hands, she happily checked it. I smiled. She patted the space beside her on the bed. I seated, she took my shoulder and took a picture of us.

“Wait. You can ask me to pose first.” I again took the camera, “How about you? I have to take a picture of you. Smile. *click*.” I showed her the picture and she smiled. “Let us picture together.” I smiled so as she. The camera shutters and she checked it quickly. The door opens and the delivery of food is here. Thanking the nurse, I closed the door. Looking, the meals are always as the same every day. Even the oath meal does not have any taste.

Opening the lid, I look at Sprill who is probably hungry, still looking outside the window. Seriously, why did she like to stare at outside? Technically because she missed it. “Here. Open your mouth.” I set the spoon near to her mouth, sniffing she make an ugly expression. “Do you not want it? You had to eat though, notwithstanding everything happened, you need to eat to get your energy back.” I explained to her. Closing her eyes, she swallowed the tasteless foods.

“Do you want to get out again?” I ask, while assisting her to eat. “No. I cannot, remember? It is a little sad to look outside envying people who can freely walk, just like a bird.” She exhaled sadly. “I am here, I am accompanying you. I will not leave you alone? How’s that?” I met her eyes, it’s hard to decipher what she is thinking right now. Similar to… I sighed. I cannot think anything to summary her eyes.

“You will never leave me alone?” Hearing her, I just cannot feel but to be nervous. In the past, I never feel this way, but now I feel very uncomfortable. This question… I am not sure. “Definitely!” I said almost shouting. She slightly smiled. Her smile, is it sincere?

“I would love if you didn’t do that though.” I wrinkle my brows. ‘What love if I didn’t do what??’ what does she meant in that. “Huh?” I never feel this trembling. “I said, I don’t like touchy words.” She said calmly. So that’s what she meant… I am worried for nothing. “Tsk. You tell me so difficult to know. Something hard to understand, vaguely like that. Haha.”

I softly laugh. She smiled watching me laugh. Her eyes is appreciating this very moment.  I cannot control myself, I inch to her to plant a peck on her left cheek. Her cheek become red so as her ear. This is very----- whatever!

“You surprised me there.” She said rubbing her cheeks slowly. I chuckle. Not once did I ever feel like especial. This second will etch in my heart sweetly, this glimmering spark will instantly will be put in my mind. Her smile is everything, her eyes that’s appreciating me will be my forever mirror of my life.
“Why do you rub your cheek?” I point to ask. “Me? Nothing.” She answered in her usual tone- calm as always. Previously she is cold as ice, moreover hard to talk with maybe because she is the daughter of star company. But even if. At this time, she turned to be calm, gentle and frequently smiled. For me, I prefer this current her. I am not saying I never liked her past self, but seeing her kind spirit feels like she’ll never had her past personality back.

Why am I critiquing her so much now? This will look like I loath her. Nevertheless, I loved her now. I will not look upon her past but the present, this is what matters. Past is just past it cannot go to our future so as the present will never go in our past, eventually.

Author’s note: I see that my story is a bit touching right? I feel hehe, happy that I get to write this masterpiece. I hope everyone is happily reading so as me gladly writing. Do not forget to vote and comment if you want. Critique me if your heart wanted, it is fine. I am open minded person. How is the flow? Going fine? If you have any question regarding of the happenings, just ask me, I will never punch you. As if I could. Ehehhehehe…. Fetties… [I will surely try to change the name fetties… it is lame.]