"The Ugliness of a handsome Legend"

Chapter 44

Chapter 44

He felt that, that hug he’s talking about is very sweet, why do I feel cringe? I cannot understand my feelings.

Soon, I asks questions and he’ll simply answered them with calm tone. Like, he said he likes me better when I am angry. I knit my brows yet I didn’t let him saw it, my feelings do not want to accept him complimenting me. Actually, I will ask about us, me and he, but suddenly I don’t have the urge. I am not interested in an instant. I curve up my lips because I seem to little by little agree in this situation.

“Rest tomorrow, we will visit the garden.” He told me, because I had this inexplicable state of mind I waited as he cover me with blanket, maybe he misunderstood that he slightly smiled. I was captivated by it however I closed my eyes. I feel he sleep in the bed near mine, when I’m sure he already slept, I open my eyes and sighed. Why uncomfortable feeling does surrounds me?

The next day, he kept his promise that he let me out to see the garden. I am happy that I get outside. He asks me if I like the scenery and I honestly replied by, “Hmm… I like it very much, no stress, just a vast green scenery.” I breathed and feel the fresh wind frame me. I like it here.

He begun to be concerned even ask if I’m stress also if I want to go back, okay I get it that you are being considerate towards me, but at least… We’re here just a moment ago. Heck! Did he want to go back badly? In return I just sighed then didn’t said a word.

I am bored, in the end I initiated our talk then my mouth said, “Kenshi, could you recite our first meeting?” I want to confirm something I don’t know, can somebody tell me what it is.

“Our first meeting is just a common meeting, but that time, sparkle from your eyes can be seen. That time, I ignored it, time went by and I got crazy from your eye. Ashley introduced me so as you, we shook hands. It is a masterpiece after all. Am I right?” he kneeled down, I smiled to him even before he got to finished his sentence. “Of course, it is masterpiece. In spite of everything, it is our first seeing each other.” When I told him my answer I deliberately lowered my head.

He chuckled then say, “Are you that embarrass that I find your quiet movements?” he teased me to the point I giggled. I just find it funny when he chuckled. Ahm…

Suddenly he said, “Sprill, if I say I am sorry. What do you do?” he then get serious, because of that I looked up to him and ask, “What do you mean?” he appears to be problematic to open the topic but I waited. He sighed then averting his eyes, he said, “I am sorry, really, if you ever recover your memories I wish the first thing you do is to forgive me. That is all.” In his words I became stunned, I just felt I am in my room then I observe he is there cutting an apple.

He gave me apple, then I bit it. He is staring to me again that I want to mock me however he said “You are beautiful, because.” With that I instantly blushed. I knew he saw it but I let him see it. I am shy~~ he shifted the topic from asking if I feel better, but I diverted my eyes to him because I do not want to see him staring to me again. I feel a little unwell because I have a complicated issues inside my head.

When I answered him in like things that is hard to understand, he starts to be concerned asking me if I am feeling sick or everything. Though, I feel it pleasing to be treated well, I just want to be outside that I told him my thoughts about going outside. “I cannot wait to be discharged.” The last words I said before going inside my quilt.

When I woke up, he is not here, I remember he isn’t eating then I become concern a little. He needs to protect himself, by eating. I seated while resting my head on the pillow. ‘Why would I forgive him? Did anything happen? It feels frustrated to not remember a thing. I have amnesia I know it. I percept it and the last idea I have is I have amnesia.’ I lie again just on time Kenshi got inside. He is staring to me again, I felt it, and his intent gaze fell upon me. Shiver~~

I don’t know what he remember that he sighed desperately then sleep. Did he seriously loved staring at my beautiful face? Why would he- I mean why would I forget him? If so, I shouldn’t because the fact that we’re married doesn’t make any sense. Why would I forget about him when half of my life is being with him, spending all remaining days? That also means, he did a very big mistake that resulted me to forget him. Moreover, what he said earlier doesn’t make any sense at all. Yup, I know that married couples bicker, but it never resulted in situation like I am in. Ahahaha…. What happened? Why am in not informed?

I choose to set aside my boredom by getting the camera hidden in the drawer. No photos, just scenery of garden, seas, animals and his family. Wait, we don’t have photos? Even a single photo cannot be seen. Are we really married couple?

I captured him that makes him wide awake, he is stunned then resulting us to took pictures as well me as single photo. I feel happy that I get to experience this also the fact that I don’t have any pictures vexed me. Hmph!!

Afterwards I saw a familiar food, not my style. I want to eat meat, everything that is not involved this hospital!