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Chapter 13. Brosephs Through Thick and Thin

Peaches in a bag, yeah, that'll be good enough. I thought to myself as I plopped some peaches into a nice looking bag. To be fair, the bag was drop dead gorgeous. Ten out of ten, would bang. There were peaches and my kind’s words that would have hopefully brought Shikamaru out of his funk. 

Recently, Asuma had just died because of the Akatsuki. Shikamaru fucking flipped. He had not been talking to anybody or going outside for a few days. We had begun to worry and I had a plan. Was it a good plan? I had no idea. It seemed like a good plan to me. All I knew was that if someone broke into my room in the middle of the night just to comfort me, I would feel a bit honored and grateful. I had hoped that Shikamaru had been the same way. 

"Time to bring peaches and joy to a broseph in need," I chuckled at my joke and put a black sweatshirt on. I figured it was either go big or stay at home. Everything I wore was black and screamed, "Bruh, I'm gonna break into your fucking house." I was ready. 

I left my apartment and begun to jump from roof top to roof top to Shikamaru's house. At first, I had no idea where Shikamaru lived. Looking it up in a library seemed like too much effort so I took the easy route and asked Choji. He and I had a nice talk and meal together. It was very nice and wonderful. He and I bonded more than ever before with that talk of ours. Granted, I knew what it was like to lose somebody on a mission and feel responsible. It was when I realized that almost everybody in the village had endured that very same pain, I felt the very core of my soul hurt. Whether it was a teammate or somebody they had seen themselves in and lost them, the pain was still pain. It didn't stop existing because of the simple variable of "who died". 

I had tried to push it out of my mind the idea that so many of my fellow shinobi experienced trauma of their own. People have gone blind, lost limbs, or their life, just to protect the people they cared about. To protect a village that was home almost everywhere they went. It was when people realized that some others shared the same scars as them, that this village became more a home. It sent shivers down my spine when I remembered that. I forced myself to shake it out and continue about my normal and everyday business.

Of course, there were deer all over Shikamaru's place. They wasted no time in trying to tackle me or attack me. At first I thought it was a little game, but it wasn't. When I got rammed in the head, I realized that it wasn't a game anymore. I groaned in pain as I rubbed my head and begun to use the trees as my way around. The deer were still aggressive. 

It didn't take long for Shikamaru's father to come out and try to throw a kunai at me. I yelled that it was me and I had brought peaches. He looked at me like I was a giant idiot and he would pop me like a pimple if he could have. Truth to be told, I didn't blame him. It was around midnight and sleep was very important to have. How kind I was to deprive him of it. We had a quick discussion and soon I was walking towards Shikamaru's room with a bag of peaches in my right hand, a smile on my face, and deep thoughts it my mind. He and I were going to bond so fucking hard. 

His room sounded silent and the only sounds I could hear were my own footsteps thumping against the ground. It was when I realized what a ruckus I was making, that I began to tip toe to be as stealthy and silent as possible. Never before has been being a ninja so hopeful. I thought to myself and rethought that and sweat dropped at my own thought. Well, on second thought.. 

I opened Shikamaru's door and crept into his room. It was really bare and Shikamaru was curled into a ball lying on the ground. A frown appeared on my face when I saw him. Shinobis go through a lot of unnecessary pain. I shook the bag of peaches in an attempt to wake him up. 

"Hey Shikamaru, I brought some peaches. They're my favorite." I sang to him and shook the bag some more. 

"Go away." He whispered and I shook my head from side to side, despite the fact that he was facing the opposite direction and couldn't see me. 

"Sorry, I can't do that. You're walking a dangerous rope right now, and I'm here to guide you so you don't fall off. This is what comrades are for." I sat down a few feet away from him and took out a peach. "I hope you don't mind, but I'm gonna snack on one of these. Don't get the wrong idea, they're from you. I just have no self-control." God, I fucking loved peaches.

"Go away." This time, his voice was more firm and aggressive. I contemplated it for a few seconds until he said it again in a weaker tone. 

Again, my head shook from side to side. "Sorry, I can't do that. I just want to talk to you a bit before you choose where you're gonna go from here. Everybody in this village has been through grief. I just want you to know some of the options of how you can end up with this grief. There are people who have drowned themselves in grief and regret, even decades afterwards they still live in it.

"Some people drown themselves in regret while others drown themselves in revenge. There are the people like Sasuke, who used that grief to fuel hatred and the want for revenge. We all know that Sasuke became a giant poopie butt and nobody knows exactly what he's doing right now." I threw my hands in the air and shrugged my shoulders. "He's just a huge mess."

Shikamaru was quiet as I took another bite of a peach and took a few minutes to chew and swallow it. He still faced away from me, but I took it as a good sign since he wasn't telling me to leave anymore. 

"Shikamaru, I really care about you and don't want you to end up with so much grief and regret that you hate every fiber of your being. Or you become so filled with grief that you end up letting revenge take over who you are and do everything just so you can get those few moments of pure glory. Don't end up like Sasuke." 

"What about you? Doesn't that make you a hypocrite?" He questioned and finally rolled over so he was facing me. I sheepishly scratched the back of my neck. 

It took a few seconds to gather the thoughts in my mind to process them. "Well, I guess to an extent. I do want revenge and I want Orochimaru to suffer. I want him to know what he's done and continues to do is wrong on so many levels and many lives have suffered because of him. He's used so many people just for his own personal gain. He's the most selfish person I've ever met. I want to stop him anyways I can, save Momoko, and help destroy him somehow. So yeah, I guess I want that tar butt destroyed and to get revenge, but I also want him to stop what he's doing. Even if it's pushing him back just a few minutes or a few days from his plans happening, that's time that can be used to save lives." 

He rolled onto his back and stared straight up at the ceiling. The moon shined just right so I could see how much pain he had experienced. Some people could hide their pain at times, but Shikamaru couldn't. There were bags underneath his eyes and they looked glassy and red. If I poked one of his eyes, I was sure that it would have shattered right there on the spot. He blinked a few times then spoke. 

"I want to kill him. He deserves it and will continue killing people because he knows he can." Shikamaru said firmly. "I don't want to end up like Sasuke, I never cared for the guy and have no special feeling towards him. But I can tell that him leaving caused a lot of pain for some people." His head shook from side to side. "I have a child to help take care of and doing that to other people, it would just be a pain for everyone." 

I grinned as I picked up a peach and tossed it to him. He caught it and examined it in his hand for a few moments. His head turned towards me and there was a very small smile on his face. "Thank you." 

I stood up and waved to him. "Have fun with your revenge. I'm sorry about Asuma, he was a great shinobi. Who else to help take care of his child but you, a shinobi that's just as great." With those words, I turned around and left the compound. 

Some hardcore bonding had just happened. 

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Hiya guys. I really hope you enjoyed the chapter and everything. I didn't mean to make it as serious as it was, but it just happened and I'm actually really happy with the final product. In my opinion, it's really great and was able to show Mika's growth as a person and how she's matured over the years. Did you guys like the chapter? How are you? Anything new with you? How’s school been? And, are you a cats or dogs person? 

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