When 2 Worlds Collide

Chapter 25- The Aftermath

It's been a month since Cher and Toni got back together and it's been going great. They avoid arguing, the typical things.  They havent had sex in about 3 months. I know, a long time for them right?

Its about, 8:24 at night and they're laying in bed. Cheryl kissed Toni and she returned it. Cheryl started straddling Toni's waist. She slowly took off her shirt (Toni's) and started to kiss on her neck.

"I-I'm not ready yet."

"Okay, I'm sorry."

"Its not that I dont want to, it's just not right now."

Even though Toni explained why she didnt want to do it, Cher still felt sad. Nobody knew this but, even though Cher might've worn revealing outfits, she was insecure with her body. She would become anorexic, not eat for days, even weeks. Toni hasn't even noticed.

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She didnt feel comfortable in her own body. She didnt want anyone to know, so whenever she was around friends she would eat but throw it up when she "went to the bathroom".

Toni felt something was wrong and odd when that would happen. She didnt want to bring it up because she didnt want to upset her.

Cher put her own shirt back on and curled up into a ball in the covers. Toni tried to touch her and she jumped causing Toni to quickly move her hand.

"Babe, what's wrong?"

"Nothing."

"You jumped when I touched you. You never do that."

"You scared me, that's all."

"Are you sure that's it? If theres something you need to tell me you can. You know that right?"

"Yeah I know. I'm fine."

"Okay, I'll be right back."

Toni left the room and went downstairs hoping Penelope or Jason was down there. After looking around, she finally spotted Penelope in the dining room, drinking tea and on her phone.

"Hey, Ms. B, has Cher ever jumped when you, Jason, or her dad tried touch her?"

"Yeah, it still happens now."

"Do you know why?"

"Well, I don't know exactly but, she has her moments where she doesnt eat. But, if she does eat, she throws it up. Either on purpose or just as an instinct ."

"How long does it usually go on for?"

"Sometimes a few days, other times weeks to a month."

Toni got quiet and started to cry. She didnt like that Cher did that. Even though everyone has their own preferences in their body, she personally loves Cher's body. Every curve, every freckle, everything about her. It's not that she didnt like the fact she felt insecure about herself, which she hated, it's that shes never showed it. She always had a feeling but she never brought it up.

She hated the fact that her girlfriend could think such bad things about herself.

"Honey, what's wrong."

"Its just that, I don't get why shes uncomfortable with herself. Shes beautiful the way she is and she shouldnt feel the need she has to change for me or anyone else. I've always had a feeling about it, but I never said anything because topics like this can ruin a person. I've been through it multiple times, still go through it now. I just feel that she needs to accept herself, not instantly but gain her confidence back. I know it might seem selfish but, that's how I truly feel."