girl added into a gc with her love interest and a bunch of tiktokers but things just keep happening
i'm not gonna lie the first few chapters are absolute trash so if you can get past that i promise it gets better. i'm going to try and start editing...
over the last 4 months me and josh have become best friends and my feelings for him have grown stronger. i had established a closer connection with everyone in the gc especially bryce and anthony. we had all gotten really close and even hoped on one day flying me and josh out to meet the guys. of course josh had already met all of them but i never have in person so it would be new for me to even fly out of the country. or to fly at all for that matter. we all talked daily in the gc and sometimes out of the gc. me and josh had fucked a couple other times but other than that we have established were just friends and it will stay that way until further notice. me and bryce have gotten really close he's like my guy best friend. but not the me and josh kinda best friend. i tell bryce everything and i trust him. i told him about my depressive episodes and my anxiety. he calls me all the time to check up on me especially when i'm not answering the phone that's how he knows it's bad. usually when i don't go on social media or snapchat or stop texting anyone back then i'm on tiktok. scrolling and not wanting to do anything it's just apart of the episodes tho. but he helps he encourages me to eat and to clean my room. or even just to brush my hair and when i'm done he tells me he's very proud and that he loves me. it makes me feel appreciated and like i have meaning in this world. and when i get so low that i want to end it all i just think of the state i would leave my friends and family and bryce in. he would feel like he did it, like he didn't check in enough or tell me how much i mean to him enough. it just doesn't sit right with me. i always blame myself for being the reason i feel this way but the real reason was my mother and sometimes my father. but that's something for later in the story. i was so thankful for the gc they kept me alive so many times just with a simple "how are you" or "how was your day" and even a "did you eat" i'd never told anyone but bryce and the girls what happened at home or even about my episodes but they just knew something was off and they tried to help as much as they could.
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i put a pizza in the oven and waited for it to heat up. once i took it out i took a video in snap of me eating and sent it to bryce. he sent back a picture of the order confirmation of the puff bars saying it would be shipped in two days. i sent pack a video blowing a kiss and thanking him and went back to scrolling on tiktok. after a while i heard a knock on the door and went to open it. "hey what are you doing here" i said "bryce sent me to check on you and told me to give you a hug from him" josh replied now standing in my entryway i wrapped my arms around his waist as he took me in his embrace standing their enjoying the feeling of comfort. into the hug he said "also i have a surprise for you" "what is it" i said pulling away from the hug already missing the feeling. "bryce set up a flight for us" he said not saying anything else leaving me confused with lots of questions "where are we going, for what" i asked trying to get answers " we're going to la so you can meet the boys" "are you serious" staring into his eyes "yeah" i pulled out my phone dialing bryce's number and calling him "hey what's up" he said on the other line like he didn't know what was going on at all "bryce he better not be lying to me or i will beat his ass then actually buy a ticket and fly to la and beat your ass too" i said almost yelling at him but being serious "he's not lying it's about time you come and actually meet me it's getting boring not knowing wether or not you've eaten when i can just force you to eat here." he said jokingly "YOUR KIDING NO WAY NO WAY NO WAY" i yelled jumping up and down "yup you leave tomorrow at 6 am so i better not facetime you at one in the morning and you haven't even started packing" " you know that's exactly that's going to happen don't even act like it won't" "yeah i know but i'll talk to you later i gotta do more stuff for my vlog" "okay bye and thank you honestly" i said really meaning it "of course" and with that he hung up. i was so exited i had the biggest smile on my face. i then realized what i was wearing. just a XL shirt and underwear. i stared at josh for a second and he stared back my smile had dropped and you could see the shock on my face. i bolted upstairs and grabbed the first pair of shorts i could find on the floor of my messy room and the first bra. i quickly put them on and walked back downstairs. "what happened" he asked even though i thought he would just brush it off. "i realized i wasn't wearing any pants or a bra" i said sitting back on the couch and turning on netflix. "oh okay well i gotta go pack but i'll be here at 4:30 am sharp to pick you up so you better be ready" i just gave him a nod considering the airport was about an 45 minutes away that made sense. josh left and i went back upstairs laying back in my bed.
the next chapter will be the airport and stuff but nobody's reading this so it doesn't matter anyway
