The Camper Van | ☑️

chapter 15

*yoongi's pov*

"you can either be closer to him to minimize his pain when it happens which further your chances of being with him or distance yourself so he could fall in love with taehyung more so taehyung could see that he wants him...."

".... it's up to you yoongi."

up to me? why does it have to be up to me? I don't even want to be in this predicament in the first fucking place.

I lagged behind jimin with my hands in my pockets, who was skipping ahead of me but was still near me. I kicked the rocks below me, pondering with what I should with the information presented to me tonight.

should I distance myself? I mean, it wasn't even my goal to steal jimin from taehyung. I truly just wanted to be his friend but my stupid ass brain said "oH hE's bEIng sUpEr nIce tO yOu, yOu sHoUld gAin fEeliNgs."

god, why did I get this close with him anyway, I just wanted to go through the next two months with little to no difficulty but what happened? what fucking hap-

"yoongi? what's wrong?"

I snapped out of my thoughts to see jimin walking beside me and not in front of me, staring at me with concerned.

how do I say: 'I am distancing myself from you so you can be closer to taehyung and not have to worry about me as much' in the nicest way possible?

simple. you don't.

"just a bit tired that's all." I lied, smiling at him weakly.

"I know we have only been friends for three weeks but you don't have to hold back on me. I can try to understand even if I haven't gone through the stuff you been through."

I chuckled. "you really have a way with words huh?"

out of the corner of my eye, I could see jimin smiling.

"I guess you could say that."

we didn't say anything for a minute or two, for once, my brain finally gave me a break and I had a clear head. we left the van a bit later than usual, the sky not as black as the last time we visit which means there's a chance the sun might beat us before we reach the our van.

jimin stopped his tracks, making me stop as well and look at him with a confused face.

"why did you st-"

"I know you were lying about what you said earlier."

my heart started to race. did he overhear what me and hoseok said in the house?

no, that's impossible. him and taehyung was all over each other on the couch, there's no way he could have heard us, plus we was whispering.

"you probably want to wait until we have a couple more months into our friendship before you want to vent to me but, I just want you to realize that I will always be there for you. you really have been a great friend to me these past couple of weeks and well, I hope I can return the favor and be a listening ear to you whenever you are feeling down."

the sun squeezed its way between the trees, shining on his face as he smiled brightly at me. my heart skipping a beat and my eyes going wide.

his milky white skin gleamed, showing off how clear it was. his brown eyes glowing from the early morning sun, his teeth reflecting off the sunlight and his brown hair creating a slight halo effect. it was beautiful.

he was beautiful.

"so don't forget about me okay?"

and that's when I figure out, just by looking at him alone, that I have feelings for him and it won't go away.

instead its just doubling..

and that thought alone is scary.