The Camper Van | ☑️

chapter 17

*jimin's pov*

ever since we finished breakfast, he became distant. he doesn't try to hold conversations, no flirting (in a playful way) and the worst part, no freaking head pats!

he told me he was fine. he said he was okay but I can't help but think that he isn't and that there's something else that he isn't telling me. did I do something wrong? did I say something that offended him or insulted him? I mean, we throw insults at each other from time to time but that's how we joke.

I looked over the driver seat to see yoongi playing with his switch, making me sigh. it's nearly dinner time and he still haven't came to check up on me.

I turned back in front, staring out into the partially cloudy sky through the dashboard. I really hope we don't start to drift away; yoongi is a great guy and I could see him in my future as best friends. he understands me in ways nobody could, not even taehyung at times.

I grabbed my sketchbook and started doodling whatever comes to mind, starting with the face guidelines and went from there.

yoongi probably just have one of those days when you feel down and have no reason why you feel that way. I don't want to pester him and keep asking him if he's okay cause that could get annoying. I just hate seeing him like this, it makes me feel down too.

god I feel useless, I wish there was something I could do.

about 30 minutes and many thoughts later, my mouth went agape when I looked at the finished product. well, I did draw the first thing that came to mind..

.. and what came to mind was yoongi..

..i drew a rough sketch of yoongi's face.

I think I am going insane.

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(i changed the pov INTENTIONALLY this time :p)

"you were extremely quiet today." jimin started, picking up some chap chae (stir-fried korean noodles) with his chopsticks and placed the delicacy in his mouth to eat it.

"I just have a lot on my mind.. about what I need to do after this challenge."

"is it really that yoongi?" jimin knows its better to wait till he's willing to tell him but it's killing him inside. they broke their routine and he felt like they was strangers to each other again, like the first day they met.

yoongi looked up to jimin and jimin got scared. did he pushed it?

yoongi sighed, placing his chopsticks down and closing his eyes. he can't wait another day, he's just driving himself crazy and making jimin worried about his change of behavior, even though that's not changing. he made up his mind that he was distancing himself, regardless if he told him or not.

"jimin.. I like you."

"okay? I like you t-"

"no. I caught feelings for you." yoongi propped his elbows on the table and placed his head in his hands, looking down.

"I'm not sure when it started but I know when I realized and it was that day when the sunrise caught up to us before we reached the van."

"ye-yesterday?" jimin whispered, completely shocked. yoongi didn't say anything.

jimin didn't know what to say, is that why yoongi has been quiet all day today?

before jimin could ask him any more questions, yoongi beat him to it.

"I just thought I should tell you because keeping it to myself was difficult. It felt like I was carrying the world on my back, the weight was unbearable."

"but please don't worry, I will distance myself for a few days until they go away. I don't want nothing to change between us, we can just forget I said this and everything will be okay." yoongi finished, taking his head from his hands but still continued to look down at his lap.

no it won't. jimin thought. why do I feel some type of way? it's feels like me and him broke up but we never got together.

".. okay."

yoongi thought jimin moved on from the topic with how he agreed, which furthers his point that this small confession didn't bother him.

"okay.."

when really, it bothered jimin like hell.